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COPYRIGHT, 1915, BY ELISABETH WOODBRIDGE MORRIS
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
Published November 1915
TO
JONATHAN
What I find it hard to understand is, why a
person who can see a spray of fringed gentian
in the middle of a meadow can’t see a book on
the sitting-room table.
The reason why I can see the gentian,
said Jonathan, is because the gentian is
there.
So is the book,
I responded.
Which table?
he asked.
The one with the lamp on it. It’s a red
book, about
so big.
It isn’t there; but, just to satisfy you,
I’ll look again.
He returned in a moment with an argumentative
expression of countenance. It
isn’t there,
he said firmly. Will anything
else do instead?
No, I wanted you to read that special
thing. Oh, dear! And I have all these things
in my lap! And I know it
is
there.
And I
He stretched himself
out in the hammock and watched me as
I rather ostentatiously laid down thimble,
scissors, needle, cotton, and material and set
out for the sitting-room table. There were a
number of books on it, to be sure. I glanced
rapidly through the piles, fingered the lower
books, pushed aside a magazine, and pulled
out from beneath it the book I wanted. I
returned to the hammock and handed it over.
Then, after possessing myself, again rather
ostentatiously, of material, cotton, needle,
scissors, and thimble, I sat down.know it
isn’t.
It’s the second essay I specially thought
we’d like,
I said.
Just for curiosity,
said Jonathan, with
an impersonal air, where did you find it?
Find what?
I asked innocently.
The book.
Oh! On the table.
Which table?
The one with the lamp on it.
I should like to know where.
Why—just there—on the table. There
was an
Atlantic
on top of it, to be sure.
I saw the
Atlantic.
Blest if it looked as
though it had anything under it! Besides,
I was looking for it on top of things. You
said you laid it down there just before luncheon,
and I didn’t think it could have crawled
in under so quick.
When you’re looking for a thing,
I said,
you mustn’t think, you must look. Now
go ahead and read.
If this were a single instance, or even if it
were one of many illustrating a common
human frailty, it would hardly be worth setting
down. But the frailty under consideration
has come to seem to me rather particularly
masculine. Are not all the Jonathans
in the world continually being sent to some
sitting-room table for something, and coming
back to assert, with more or less pleasantness,
according to their temperament, that it is not
there? The incident, then, is not isolated; it
is typical of a vast group. For Jonathan, read
Everyman; for the red book, read any particular
thing that you want Him to bring;
for the sitting-room table, read the place
This, at least, is my thesis. It is not, however,
unchallenged. Jonathan has challenged
it when, from time to time, as occasion offered,
I have lightly sketched it out for him.
Sometimes he argues that my instances are
really isolated cases and that their evidence
is not cumulative, at others he takes refuge
in a tu quoque—in
itself a confession of weakness—and
alludes darkly to top shelves
and bottom drawers.
But let us have no
mysteries. These phrases, considered as arguments,
have their origin in certain incidents
which, that all the evidence may be in, I will
here set down.
Once upon a time I asked Jonathan to get
me something from the top shelf in the closet.
He went, and failed to find it. Then I went,
and took it down. Jonathan, watching over
my shoulder, said, But that wasn’t the top
shelf, I suppose you will admit.
Sure enough! There was a shelf above.
Oh, yes; but I don’t count that shelf. We
never use it, because nobody can reach
it.
How do you expect me to know which
shelves you count and which you don’t?
Of course, anatomically—structurally—it
is one, but functionally it isn’t there at all.
I see,
said Jonathan, so contentedly that
I knew he was filing this affair away for future
use.
On another occasion I asked him to get
something for me from the top drawer of the
old high-boy
in the dining-room. He was
gone a long while, and at last, growing impatient,
I followed. I found him standing on
an old wooden-seated chair, screw-driver in
hand. A drawer on a level with his head was
open, and he had hanging over his arm
a gaudy collection of ancient table-covers
and embroidered scarfs, mostly in shades of
magenta.
She stuck, but I’ve got her open now.
I don’t see any pillow-cases, though. It’s all
full of these things.
He pumped his laden
arm up and down, and the table-covers
wagged gayly.
I sank into the chair and laughed. Oh!
Have you been prying at that all this time?
Of
course there’s nothing in
that drawer.
There’s where you’re wrong. There’s a
great deal in it; I haven’t taken out half. If
you want to see—
I
don’t want to see!
There’s nothing I
want less! What I mean is—I never put
anything there.
It’s the top drawer.
He was beginning
to lay back the table-covers.
But I can’t reach it. And it’s been stuck
for ever so long.
You said the top drawer.
Yes, I suppose I did. Of course what I
meant was the top one of the ones I use.
I see, my dear. When you say top shelf
you don’t mean top shelf, and when you say
top drawer you don’t mean top drawer; in
fact, when you say top you don’t mean top
at all—you mean the height of your head.
Everything above that doesn’t count.
Jonathan was so pleased with this formulation
of my attitude that he was not in the
least irritated to have put out unnecessary
work. And his satisfaction was deepened by
one more incident. I had sent him to the
bottom drawer of my bureau to get a shawl.
He returned without it, and I was puzzled.
Now, Jonathan, it’s there, and it’s the top
thing.
The real top,
murmured Jonathan, or
just what you call top?
It’s right in front,
I went on; and I
don’t see how even a man could fail to find it.
He proceeded to enumerate the contents of the drawer in such strange fashion that I began to wonder where he had been.
I said my bureau.
I went to your bureau.
The bottom drawer.
The bottom drawer. There was nothing
but a lot of little boxes and—
Oh,
I know what you did!
You went to the secret drawer.
Isn’t that the bottom one?
Why, yes, in a way—of course it is; but
it doesn’t exactly count—it’s not one of the
regular drawers—it hasn’t any knobs, or
anything—
But it’s a perfectly good drawer.
Yes. But nobody is supposed to know
it’s there; it looks like a molding—
But I know it’s there.
Yes, of course.
And you know I know it’s there.
Yes, yes; but I just don’t think about
that one in counting up. I see what you mean,
of course.
And I see what you mean. You mean that
your shawl is in the bottom one of the regular
drawers—with knobs—that can be alluded
to in general conversation. Now I think I can
find it.
He did. And in addition he amused himself
by working out phrases about when is a
bottom drawer not a bottom drawer?
and
when is a top shelf not a top shelf?
It is to these incidents—which I regard as isolated and negligible, and he regards as typical and significant—that he alludes on the occasions when he is unable to find a red book on the sitting-room table. In vain do I point out that when language is variable and fluid it is alive, and that there may be two opinions about the structural top and the functional top, whereas there can be but one as to the book being or not being on the table. He maintains a quiet cheerfulness, as of one who is conscious of being, if not invulnerable, at least well armed.
For a time he even tried to make believe that he was invulnerable as well—to set up the thesis that if the book was really on the table he could find it. But in this he suffered so many reverses that only strong natural pertinacity kept him from capitulation.
Is it necessary to recount instances? Every
family can furnish them. As I allow myself to
float off into a reminiscent dream I find my
mind possessed by a continuous series of dissolving
views in which Jonathan is always
coming to me saying, It isn’t there,
and I
am always saying, Please look again.
Though everything in the house seems to be in a conspiracy against him, it is perhaps with the fishing-tackle that he has most constant difficulties.
My dear, have you any idea where my
rod is? No, don’t get up—I’ll look if you’ll
just tell me where—
Probably in the corner behind the chest
in the orchard room.
I’ve looked there.
Well, then, did you take it in from the
wagon last night?
Yes, I remember doing it.
What about the little attic? You might
have put it up there to dry out.
No. I took my wading boots up, but that
was all.
The dining-room? You came in that
way.
He goes and returns. Not there.
I reflect
deeply.
Jonathan, are you
sure
it’s not in that corner of the orchard room?
Yes, I’m sure; but I’ll look again.
He
disappears, but in a moment I hear his voice
calling, No! Yours is here, but not mine.
I perceive that it is a case for me, and I get
up. You go and harness. I’ll find it,
I call.
There was a time when, under such conditions, I should have begun by hunting in all the unlikely places I could think of. Now I know better. I go straight to the corner of the orchard room. Then I call to Jonathan, just to relieve his mind.
All right! I’ve found it.
Where?
Here, in the orchard room.
Where in the orchard
room?
In the corner.
What corner?
The usual corner—back of the chest.
The devil!
Then he comes back to put
his head in at the door. What are you
laughing at?
Nothing. What are you talking about the
devil for? Anyway, it isn’t the devil; it’s the
brownie.
For there seems no doubt that the things he hunts for are possessed of supernatural powers; and the theory of a brownie in the house, with a special grudge against Jonathan, would perhaps best account for the way in which they elude his search but leap into sight at my approach. There is, to be sure, one other explanation, but it is one that does not suggest itself to him, or appeal to him when suggested by me, so there is no need to dwell upon it.
If it isn’t the rod, it is the landing-net,
which has hung itself on a nail a little to the
left or right of the one he had expected to see
it on; or his reel, which has crept into a corner
of the tackle drawer and held a ball of string
in front of itself to distract his vision; or a
bunch of snell hooks, which, aware of its protective
Fishing-tackle is, clearly, possessed,
but
in other fields Jonathan is not free from
trouble. Finding anything on a bureau
seems to offer peculiar obstacles. It is perhaps
a big, black-headed pin that I want.
On the pincushion, Jonathan.
He goes, and returns with two sizes of safety-pins and one long hat-pin.
No, dear, those won’t do. A small, black-headed
one—at least small compared with a
hat-pin, large compared with an ordinary pin.
Common or house pin?
he murmurs,
quoting a friend’s phrase.
Do look again! I hate to drop this to go
myself.
When a man does a job, he gets his tools
together first.
Yes; but they say women shouldn’t copy
men, they should develop along their own
lines. Please go.
He goes, and comes back. You don’t
want fancy gold pins, I suppose?
No, no! Here, you hold this, and I’ll go.
Well, it wasn’t in the cushion, I bet.
No,
I admit; it was in a saucer just behind
the cushion.
You said cushion.
I know. It’s all right.
Now, if you had said simply
bureau,
I’d
have looked in other places on it.
Yes, you’d have
I could not forbear responding. There is, I
grant, another side to this question. One
evening when I went upstairs I found a partial
presentation of it, in the form of a little
newspaper clipping, pinned on my cushion.
It read as follows:—looked
in other places!
My dear,said she,please run and bring me the needle from the haystack.
Oh, I don’t know which haystack.
Look in all the haystacks—you can’t miss it; there’s only one needle.
Jonathan was in the cellar at the moment.
When he came up, he said, Did I hear any
one laughing?
I don’t know. Did you?
I thought maybe it was you.
It might have been. Something amused
me—I forget what.
I accused Jonathan of having written it
himself, but he denied it. Some other Jonathan,
then; for, as I said, this is not a personal
matter, it is a world matter. Let us grant,
then, a certain allowance for those who hunt
in woman-made haystacks. But what about
pockets? Is not a man lord over his own
pockets? And are they not nevertheless as
so many haystacks piled high for his confusion?
Certain it is that Jonathan has nearly
as much trouble with his pockets as he does
with the corners and cupboards and shelves
and drawers of his house. It usually happens
over our late supper, after his day in town.
He sets down his teacup, struck with a sudden
memory. He feels in his vest pockets—first
the right, then the left. He proceeds to search
himself, murmuring, I thought something
came to-day that I wanted to show you—oh,
here! no, that isn’t it. I thought I put it—no,
those are to be—what’s this? No,
that’s a memorandum. Now, where in—
There, Jonathan! What’s that? No, not
that—that!
He pulls it out with an air of immense
relief. There! I knew I had something.
That’s it.
When we travel, the same thing happens with the tickets, especially if they chance to be costly and complicated ones, with all the shifts and changes of our journey printed thick upon their faces. The conductor appears at the other end of the car. Jonathan begins vaguely to fumble without lowering his paper. Pocket after pocket is browsed through in this way. Then the paper slides to his knee and he begins a more thorough investigation, with all the characteristic clapping and diving motions that seem to be necessary. Some pockets must always be clapped and others dived into to discover their contents.
No tickets. The conductor is halfway up
the car. Jonathan’s face begins to grow serious.
I must have pulled
them out when I took out those postcards in
the other car. Yes, that’s just what has happened.
Then, the conductor being only a
few seats away, I beg Jonathan to look once
more in his vest pocket, where he always puts
them. To oblige me he looks, though without
faith, and lo! this time the tickets fairly
fling themselves upon him, with smiles almost
curling up their corners. Does the brownie
travel with us, then?
I begin to suspect that some of the good
men who have been blamed for forgetting to
In the matter of the home haystacks Jonathan’s
confidence in himself has at last been
shaken. For a long time, when he returned
to me after some futile search, he used to say,
Of course you can look for it if you like, but
it is
But man is a reasoning, if not
altogether a reasonable, being, and with a sufficient
accumulation of evidence, especially
when there is some one constantly at hand to
interpret its teachings, almost any set of opinions,
however fixed, may be shaken. So here.not there.
Once when we shut up the farm for the winter I left my fountain pen behind. This was little short of a tragedy, but I comforted myself with the knowledge that Jonathan was going back that week-end for a day’s hunt.
Be sure to get the pen first of all,
I said,
and put it in your pocket.
Where is it?
he asked.
In the little medicine cupboard over the
Why not on your desk?
he asked.
Because I was writing tags in there, and
set it up so it would be out of the way.
And it
was
out of the way. All right. I’ll
collect it.
He went, and on his return I met him with
eager hand—My pen!
I’m sorry,
he began.
You didn’t forget!
I exclaimed.
No. But it wasn’t there.
But—did you look?
Yes, I looked.
Thoroughly?
Yes. I lit three matches.
Matches! Then you didn’t get it when
you first got there!
Why—no—I had the dog to attend
to—and—but I had plenty of time when I
got back, and it
wasn’t
there.
Well—Dear me! Did you look anywhere
else? I suppose I may be mistaken.
Perhaps I did take it back to the desk.
That’s just what I thought myself,
said
Jonathan. So I went there, and looked, and
Bet it isn’t.
It wasn’t. For two weeks more I was driven to using other pens—strange and distracting to the fingers and the eyes and the mind. Then Jonathan was to go up again.
Please look once more,
I begged, and
don’t expect not to see it. I can fairly see it
myself, this minute, standing up there on the
right-hand side, just behind the machine oil
can.
Oh, I’ll look,
he promised. If
it’s there, I’ll find it.
He returned penless. I considered buying another. But we were planning to go up together the last week of the hunting season, and I thought I would wait on the chance.
We got off at the little station and hunted
our way up, making great sweeps and jogs, as
hunters must, to take in certain spots we
thought promising—certain ravines and
swamp edges where we are always sure of
hearing the thunderous whir of partridge
wings, or the soft, shrill whistle of woodcock.
You light the lamp,
I said, and I’ll
just take a match and go through to see if
that pen
should
happen to be there.
No use doing anything to-night,
said
Jonathan. To-morrow morning you can
have a thorough hunt.
But I took my match, felt my way into the next room, past the fireplace, up to the cupboard, then struck my match. In its first flare-up I glanced in. Then I chuckled.
Jonathan had gone out to the dining-room, but he has perfectly good ears.
NO!
he roared, and his tone of dismay,
incredulity, rage, sent me off into gales of
unscrupulous laughter. He was striding in,
candle in hand, shouting, It was
not there!
Look yourself,
I managed to gasp.
This time, somehow, he could see it.
You planted it! You brought it up and
planted it!
I never! Oh, dear me! It pays for going
without it for weeks!
said Jonathan, with vehement finality.Nothing
will ever make me believe that
that pen was standing there when I looked
for it!
All right,
I sighed happily. You don’t
have to believe it.
But in his heart perhaps he does believe it.
At any rate, since that time he has adopted a
new formula: My dear, it may be there, of
course, but I don’t see it.
And this position
I regard as unassailable.
One triumph he has had. I wanted something that was stored away in the shut-up town house.
Do you suppose you could find it?
I said,
as gently as possible.
I can try,
he said.
I think it is in a box about this shape—see?—a
gray box, in the attic closet, the
farthest-in corner.
Are you sure it’s in the house? If it’s in
the house, I think I can find it.
Yes, I’m sure of that.
When he returned that night, his face wore a look of satisfaction very imperfectly concealed beneath a mask of nonchalance.
Good for you!
Was it where I said?
No.
Was it in a different corner?
No.
Where was it?
It wasn’t in a corner at all. It wasn’t in
that closet.
It wasn’t! Where, then?
Downstairs in the hall closet.
He paused,
then could not forbear adding, And it wasn’t
in a gray box; it was in a big hat-box with
violets all over it.
Why,
Jonathan!
Aren’t you grand! How
did you ever find it? I couldn’t have done
better myself.
Under such praise he expanded. The
fact is,
he said confidentially, I had given
it up. And then suddenly I changed my
mind. I said to myself,
Jonathan, don’t
be a man! Think what she’d do if she
were here now.
And then I got busy and
found it.
Jonathan!
I could almost have wept if
I had not been laughing.
Well,
he said, proud, yet rather sheepish,
what is there so funny about that? I gave
up half a day to it.
Funny! It isn’t funny—exactly. You
don’t mind my laughing a little? Why, you’ve
lived down the fountain pen—we’ll forget
the pen—
Oh, no, you won’t forget the pen either,
he said, with a certain pleasant grimness.
Well, perhaps not—of course it would
be a pity to forget that. Suppose I say, then,
that we’ll always regard the pen in the light
of the violet hat-box?
I think that might do.
Then he had an
alarming afterthought. But, see here—you
won’t expect me to do things like that often?
Dear me, no! People can’t live always on
their highest levels. Perhaps you’ll
Jonathan looked distinctly relieved.
never
do it again.I’ll accept it as a unique effort—like
Dante’s angel and Raphael’s sonnet.
Jonathan,
I said that evening, what
do you know about St. Anthony of Padua?
Not much.
Well, you ought to. He helped you to-day.
He’s the saint who helps people to find lost
articles. Every man ought to take him as
a patron saint.
And do you know which saint it is who
helps people to find lost virtues—like humility,
for instance?
No. I don’t, really.
I didn’t suppose you did,
said Jonathan.
It was a little tree-toad that began it. In a careless moment he had come down to the bench that connects the big maple tree with the old locust stump, and when I went out at dusk to wait for Jonathan, there he sat, in plain sight. A few experimental pokes sent him back to the tree, and I studied him there, marveling at the way he assimilated with its bark. As Jonathan came across the grass I called softly, and pointed to the tree.
Well?
he said.
Don’t you see?
No. What?
Look—I thought you had eyes!
Oh, what a little beauty!
And isn’t his back just like bark and
lichens! And what are those things in the tree
beside him?
Plugs, I suppose.
Plugs?
Yes. After tapping. Uncle Ben used to
tap these trees, I believe.
You mean for sap? Maple syrup?
Yes.
Jonathan! I didn’t know these were
sugar maples.
Oh, yes. These on the road.
The whole row? Why, there are ten or
fifteen of them! And you never told me!
I thought you knew.
Knew! I don’t know anything—I should
think you’d know that, by this time. Do you
suppose, if I had known, I should have let all
these years go by—oh, dear—think of all
the fun we’ve missed! And syrup!
You’d have to come up in February.
Well, then, I’ll
come in February. Who’s
afraid of February?
All right. Try it next year.
I did. But not in February. Things happened, as things do, and it was early April before I got to the farm. But it had been a wintry March, and the farmers told me that the sap had not been running except for a few days in a February thaw. Anyway, it was worth trying.
Jonathan could not come with me. He was to join me later. But Hiram found a bundle of elder spouts in the attic, and with these and an auger we went out along the snowy, muddy road. The hole was bored—a pair of them—in the first tree, and the spouts driven in. I knelt, watching—in fact, peering up the spout-hole to see what might happen. Suddenly a drop, dim with sawdust, appeared—gathered, hesitated, then ran down gayly and leapt off the end.
Look! Hiram! It’s running!
I called.
Hiram, boring the next tree, made no response. He evidently expected it to run. Jonathan would have acted just like that, too, I felt sure. Is it a masculine quality, I wonder, to be unmoved when the theoretically expected becomes actual? Or is it that some temperaments have naturally a certain large confidence in the sway of law, and refuse to wonder at its individual workings? To me the individual workings give an ever fresh thrill because they bring a new realization of the mighty powers behind them. It seems to depend on which end you begin at.
But though the little drops thrilled me, I
But what next? Every utensil in the house was out there, sitting in the road. There was nothing left but the wash-boiler. Now, I had heard tales of amateur syrup-boilings, and I felt that the wash-boiler would not do. Besides, I meant to work outdoors—no kitchen stove for me! I must have a pan, a big, flat pan. I flew to the telephone, and called up the village plumber, three miles away. Could he build me a pan? Oh, say, two feet by three feet, and five inches high—yes, right away. Yes, Hiram would call for it in the afternoon.
I felt better. And now for a fireplace! Oh,
Eyrie
and the stile in the lane. However,
there Jonathan wasn’t. So I went out into
the swampy orchard behind the house and
looked about—no lack of stones, at any rate.
I began to collect material, and Hiram, seeing
my purpose, helped with the big stones.
Somehow my fireplace got made—two side
walls, one end wall, the other end left open
for stoking. It was not as pretty as if Jonathan
had done it, but ’t was enough, ’t would
serve.
I collected fire-wood, and there I was,
ready for my pan, and the afternoon was yet
young, and the sap was drip-drip-dripping
from all the spouts. I could begin to boil next
day. I felt that I was being borne along on
the providential wave that so often floats the
inexperienced to success.
That night I emptied all my vessels into the boiler and set them out once more. A neighbor drove by and pulled up to comment benevolently on my work.
Will it run to-night?
I asked him.
No—no—’t won’t run to-night. Too
This was pleasant to hear. There was a moon, to be sure, but it was growing colder, and at the idea of crawling along that road in the middle of the night even my enthusiasm shivered a little.
So I made my rounds at nine, in the white moonlight, and went to sleep.
I was awakened the next morning to a consciousness of flooding sunshine and Hiram’s voice outside my window.
Got anything I can empty sap into? I’ve
got everything all filled up.
Sap! Why, it isn’t running yet, is it?
Pails were flowin’ over when I came out.
Flowing over! They said the sap wouldn’t
run last night.
I guest there don’t nobody know when
sap’ll run and when it won’t,
said Hiram
peacefully, as he tramped off to the barn.
In a few minutes I was outdoors. Sure
enough, Hiram had everything full—old
boilers, feed-pails, water-pails. But we found
some three-gallon milk-cans and used them.
A farm is like a city. There are always things
Then, in the clear April sunshine, I went out and surveyed the row of maples. How they did drip! Some of them almost ran. I felt as if I had turned on the faucets of the universe and didn’t know how to turn them off again.
However, there was my new pan. I set it
over my oven walls and began to pour in sap.
Hiram helped me. He seemed to think he
needed his feed-pails. We poured in sap and
we poured in sap. Never did I see anything
hold so much as that pan. Even Hiram was
stirred out of his usual calm to remark, It
beats all, how much that holds.
Of course
Jonathan would have had its capacity all calculated
the day before, but my methods are
empirical, and so I was surprised as well as
pleased when all my receptacles emptied
themselves into its shallow breadths and still
there was a good inch to allow for boiling up.
Yes, Providence—my exclusive little fool’s
Providence—was with me. The pan, and
the oven, were a success, and when Jonathan
came that night I led him out with unconcealed
The next day began overcast, but Providence was merely preparing for me a special little gift in the form of a miniature snowstorm. It was quite real while it lasted. It whitened the grass and the road, it piled itself softly among the clusters of swelling buds on the apple trees, and made the orchard look as though it had burst into bloom in an hour. Then the sun came out, there were a few dazzling moments when the world was all blue and silver, and then the whiteness faded.
And the sap! How it dripped! Once an hour I had to make the rounds, bringing back gallons each time, and the fire under my pan was kept up so that the boiling down might keep pace with the new supply.
They do say snow makes it run,
shouted
a passer-by, and another called, You want
to keep skimmin’!
Whereupon I seized my
The syrup was made. No worse accident befell than the occasional overflowing of a pail too long neglected. The syrup was made, and bottled, and distributed to friends, and was the pride of the household through the year.
This time I will go early,
I said to Jonathan;
they say the late running is never
quite so good.
It was early March when I got up there
this time—early March after a winter whose
rigor had known practically no break. Again
Jonathan could not come, but Cousin Janet
could, and we met at the little station, where
Hiram was waiting with Kit and the surrey.
The sun was warm, but the air was keen and
the woods hardly showed spring at all yet,
even in that first token of it, the slight thickening
of their millions of little tips, through
the swelling of the buds. The city trees already
Spring was in the road, however. There
ain’t no bottom to this road now, it’s just
dropped clean out,
remarked a fellow teamster
as we wallowed along companionably
through the woods. But, somehow, we
reached the farm. Again we bored our holes,
and again I was thrilled as the first bright
drops slipped out and jeweled the ends of the
spouts. I watched Janet. She was interested
but calm, classing herself at once with Hiram
and Jonathan. We unearthed last year’s
oven and dug out its inner depths—leaves
and dirt and apples and ashes—it was like
excavating through the seven Troys to get to
bottom. We brought down the big pan, now
clothed in the honors of a season’s use, and
cleaned off the cobwebs incident to a year’s
sojourn in the attic. By sunset we had a panful
of sap boiling merrily and already taking
on a distinctly golden tinge. We tasted it. It
was very syrupy. Letting the fire die down,
we went in to get supper in the utmost content
of spirit.
It’s so much simpler than last year,
I
tea,
—having
the pan and the oven ready-made, and
all—
You don’t suppose anything could happen
to it while we’re in here?
suggested
Janet. Shan’t I just run out and see?
No, sit still. What could happen? The
fire’s going out.
Yes, I know.
But her voice was uncertain.
You see, I’ve been all through it once,
I
reassured her.
As we rose, Janet said, Let’s go out before
we do the dishes.
And to humor her I agreed.
We lighted the lantern and stepped out on the
back porch. It was quite dark, and as we
looked off toward the fireplace we saw gleams
of red.
How funny!
I murmured. I didn’t
think there was so much fire left.
We felt our way over, through the yielding
mud of the orchard, and as I raised the lantern
we stared in dazed astonishment. The pan
was a blackened mass, lit up by winking red
eyes of fire. I held the lantern more closely.
I seized a stick and poked—the crisp black
It couldn’t have!
gasped Janet.
It couldn’t—but it has!
I said.
It was a matter for tears, or rage, or laughter. And laughter won. When we recovered a little we took up the black shell of carbon that had once been syrup-froth; we laid it gently beside the oven, for a keepsake. Then we poured water in the pan, and steam rose hissing to the stars.
Does it leak?
faltered Janet.
Leak!
I said. I was on my knees now,
watching the water stream through the
parted seam of the pan bottom, down into the
ashes below.
The question is,
I went on as I got up,
did it boil away because it leaked, or did it
leak because it boiled away?
I don’t see that it matters much,
said
Janet. She was showing symptoms of depression
at this point.
It matters a great deal,
I said. Because,
you see, we’ve got to tell Jonathan,
and it makes all the difference how we put
it.
I see,
said Janet; then she added, experimentally,
Why tell Jonathan?
Why, Janet, you know better! I wouldn’t
miss telling Jonathan for anything. What is
Jonathan
for!
Well—of course,
she conceded. Let’s
do dishes.
We sat before the fire that evening and I read while Janet knitted. Between my eyes and the printed page there kept rising a vision—a vision of black crust, with winking red embers smoldering along its broken edges. I found it distracting in the extreme.…
At some time unknown, out of the blind depths of the night, I was awakened by a voice:—
It’s beginning to rain. I think I’ll just
go out and empty what’s near the house.
Janet!
I murmured, don’t be absurd.
But it will dilute all that sap.
There isn’t any sap to dilute. It won’t
be running at night.
After a while the voice,
full of propitiatory intonations, resumed:—
My dear, you don’t mind if I slip out. It
will only take a minute.
I do mind. Go to sleep!
Silence. Then:—
It’s raining harder. I hate to think of all
that sap—
You don’t
I was quite
savage. have
to think!Just go to sleep—and let me!
Another silence. Then a fresh downpour.
The voice was pleading:—
Please
let me go! I’ll be back in a minute.
And it’s not cold.
Oh, well—I’m awake now, anyway.
My voice was tinged with that high
resignation that is worse than anger. Janet’s
tone changed instantly:—I’ll
go.
No, no! Don’t! Please don’t! I’m going.
I truly don’t mind.
I’m
going. I don’t mind, either, not at all.
Oh, dear! Then let’s not either of us go.
That was my idea in the first place.
Well, then, we won’t. Go to sleep, and I
will too.
Not at all! I’ve decided to go.
But it’s stopped raining. Probably it
won’t rain any more.
Then what are you making all this fuss
for?
I didn’t make a fuss. I just thought I
could slip out—
Well, you couldn’t. And it’s raining very
hard again. And I’m going.
Oh, don’t! You’ll get drenched.
Of course. But I can’t bear to have all
that sap diluted.
It doesn’t run at night. You said it
didn’t.
You said it did.
But I don’t really know. You know best.
Why didn’t you think of that sooner?
Anyway, I’m going.
Oh, dear! You make me feel as if I’d
stirred you up—
You have,
I interrupted, sweetly. I
won’t deny that you
—I felt
for a match—have stirred me up. But
now that you have mentioned itnow that you have mentioned
it, I see that this was the one thing
needed to make my evening complete, or
perhaps it’s morning—I don’t know.
We found the dining-room warm, and soon
we were equipped in those curious compromises
of vesture that people adopt under such
circumstances, and, with lantern and umbrella,
It’s diluted, sure enough,
I said, as we
emptied the pails. We crawled slowly back,
with our heavy milk-can full of sap-and-rain-water,
and went in.
The warm dining-room was pleasant to return to, and we sat down to cookies and milk, feeling almost cozy.
I’ve always wanted to know how it would
be to go out in the middle of the night this
way,
I remarked, and now I know.
Aren’t you hateful!
said Janet.
Not at all. Just appreciative. But now,
if you haven’t any
other plan, we’ll go back
to bed.
It was half-past eight when we waked next
morning. But there was nothing to wake up
for. The old house was filled with the rain-noises
that only such an old house knows.
On the little windows the drops pricked
sharply; in the fireplace with the straight flue
little attic
over the kitchen it beat with flat resonance.
In the big attic, when we went up to see if all
was tight, it filled the place with a multitudinous
clamor; on the sides of the house it drove
with a fury that re-echoed dimly within doors.
Outside, everything was afloat. We visited the trees and viewed with consternation the torrents of rain-water pouring into the pails. We tried fastening pans over the spouts to protect them. The wind blew them merrily down the road. It would have been easy enough to cover the pails, but how to let the sap drip in and the rain drip out—that was the question.
It seems as if there was a curse on the
syrup this year,
said Janet.
The trouble is,
I said, I know just
enough to have lost my hold on the fool’s
Providence, and not enough really to take
care of myself.
Superstition!
said Janet.
What do you call your idea of the curse?
I retorted. Anyway, I have an idea! Look,
Janet’s thrifty spirit was doubtful. Don’t
you need them?
Not half so much as the trees do. Come
on! Pull them off. We’ll have to have fresh
ones this summer, anyway.
We stripped the kitchen tables and the pantry and the milk-room. We got tacks and a hammer and scissors, and out we went again. We cut a piece for each tree, just enough to go over each pair of spouts and protect the pail. When tacked on, it had the appearance of a neat bib, and as the pattern was a blue and white check, the effect, as one looked down the road at the twelve trees, was very fresh and pleasing. It seemed to cheer the people who drove by, too.
But the bibs served their purpose, and the
sap dripped cozily into the pails without any
distraction from alien elements. Sap doesn’t
run in the rain, they say, but this sap did.
Probably Hiram was right, and you can’t tell.
I am glad if you can’t. The physical mysteries
of the universe are being unveiled so
The next day the rain stopped, the floods
began to subside, and Jonathan managed to
arrive, though the roads had even less bottom
to ’em
than before. The sun blazed out,
and the sap ran faster, and, after Jonathan
had fully enjoyed them, the blue and white
bibs were taken off. Somehow in the clear
March sunshine they looked almost shocking.
By the next day we had syrup enough to try
for sugar.
For on sugar my heart was set. Syrup was all very well for the first year, but now it had to be sugar. Moreover, as I explained to Janet, when it came to sugar, being absolutely ignorant, I was again in a position to expect the aid of the fool’s Providence.
How much
asked Janet.do
you know about it?
Oh, just what people say. It seems to be
partly like fudge and partly like molasses
candy. You boil it, and then you beat it, and
then you pour it off.
I’ve got more to go on than that,
said
Jonathan. I came up on the train with the
Judge. He used to see it done.
You’ve got to drive Janet over to her
train to-night; Hiram can’t,
I said.
All right. There’s time enough.
We sat down to early supper, and took
turns running out to the kitchen to try
the syrup as it boiled down. At least we said
we would take turns, but usually we all three
went. Supper seemed distinctly a side issue.
I’m going to take it off now,
said Jonathan.
Look out!
Do you think it’s time?
I demurred.
We’ll know soon,
said Jonathan, with
his usual composure.
We hung over him. Now you beat it,
I
said. But he was already beating.
Get some cold water to set it in,
he commanded.
We brought the dishpan with water
from the well, where ice still floated.
Maybe you oughtn’t to stir so much—do
you think?
I suggested, helpfully. Beat
it more—up, you know.
More the way you would eggs,
said
Janet.
I’ll show you.
I lunged at the spoon.
Go away! This isn’t eggs,
said Jonathan,
beating steadily.
Your arm must be tired. Let me take it,
pleaded Janet.
No, me!
I said. Janet, you’ve got to
get your coat and things. You’ll have to start
in fifteen minutes. Here, Jonathan, you need
a fresh arm.
I’m fresh enough.
And I really don’t think you have the
motion.
I have motion enough. This is my job.
You go and help Janet.
Janet’s all right.
So am I. See how white it’s getting. The
Judge said—
Here come Hiram and Kit,
announced
Janet, returning with bag and wraps. But
you have ten minutes. Can’t I help?
He won’t let us. He’s that
‘sot,’
I murmured. He’ll
make you miss your train.
You
he counter charged,
could
butter the pans,and you haven’t.
We flew to prepare, and the pouring began.
When the surrey disappeared around the turn of the road, I went back, shivering, to the house. It seemed very empty, as houses will, being sensitive things. I went to the kitchen. There on the table sat a huddle of little pans, to cheer me, and I fell to work getting things in order to be left in the morning. Then I went back to the fire and waited for Jonathan. I picked up a book and tried to read, but the stillness of the house was too importunate, it had to be listened to. I leaned back and watched the fire, and the old house and I held communion together.
Perhaps in no other way is it possible to get
quite what I got that evening. It was partly
If it had been really an empty house, I should have been obliged to think of these things, for in an empty house the dust speaks and the house is still, dumbly imprisoned in its own past. On the other hand, when a house is filled with life, it is still, too; it is absorbed in its own present. But when one sojourns in a house that is merely resting, full of the life that has only for a brief season left it, ready for the life that is soon to return—then one is in the midst of silences that are not empty and hollow, but richly eloquent. The house is the link that joins and interprets the living past and the living future.
Something of this I came to feel as I sat
there in the wonderful stillness. There were
new part,
and a loose door-latch
clicked as the draught shook it. A branch
drew back and forth across a window-pane
with the faintest squeak. And little by little
the old house opened its heart. All that it
told me I hardly yet know myself. It gathered
up for me all its past, the past that I had
known and the past that I had not known.
Time fell away. My own importance dwindled.
I seemed a very small part of the life
of the house—very small, yet wholly belonging
to it. I felt that it absorbed me as it
absorbed the rest—those before and after
me—for time was not.
There was the sound of slow wheels outside,
the long roll of the carriage-house door,
and the trampling of hoofs on the flooring
Your sugar is hardening nicely, I see,
he said, rubbing his hands before the fire.
Yes,
I said. You know I
told Janet
that for this part of the affair we could trust
to the fool’s Providence.
Thank you,
said Jonathan.
I’m going out to clean the pasture spring; I’ll only stop to rake the leaves away (And wait to watch the water clear, I may); I shan’t be gone long.—You come too. I’m going out to fetch the little calf That’s standing by the mother. It’s so young, It totters when she licks it with her tongue. I shan’t be gone long.—You come too. . Robert Frost
When we first planned to take up the farm
we looked forward with especial pleasure to
our evenings. They were to be the quiet
rounding-in of our days, full of companionship,
full of meditation. We’ll do lots of
reading aloud,
I said. And we’ll have long
walks. There won’t be much to do
And I chose
our summer books with special reference to
reading aloud.but walk
and read. I can hardly wait.
Of course,
I said, as we fell to work at
our packing, we’ll have to do all sorts of
things first. But the days are so long up there,
and the life is very simple. And in the evenings
Or two—or three,
suggested Jonathan.
Three! What is there to do?
Farm-life isn’t so blamed simple as you
think.
But what
is
there to do? Now, listen!
One day for trunks, one day for boxes and
barrels, one day for closets, that’s three, one
for curtains, four, one day for—for the garret,
that’s five. Well—one day for odds and
ends that I haven’t thought of. That’s
liberal, I’m sure.
Better say the rest of your life for the
odds and ends you haven’t thought of,
said
Jonathan, as he drove the last nail in a neatly
headed barrel.
Jonathan, why are you such a pessimist?
I’m not, except when you’re such an
optimist.
If I’d begun by saying it would take a
month, would you have said a week?
Can’t tell. Might have.
Anyway, there’s nothing bad about odds
and ends. They’re about all women have
much to do with most of their lives.
That’s what I said. And you called me a
pessimist.
I didn’t call you one. I said, why were
you one.
I’m sorry. My mistake,
said Jonathan
with the smile of one who scores.
And so we went.
One day for trunks was all right. Any one
can manage trunks. And the second day, the
boxes were emptied and sent flying out to the
barn. Curtains I decided to keep for evening
work, while Jonathan read. That left the
closets and the attic, or rather the attics, for
there was one over the main house and one
over the new part,
—still new,
although
now some seventy years old. They were
known as the attic and the little attic. I
thought I would do the closets first, and I began
with the one in the parlor. This was built
into the chimney, over the fireplace. It was
low, and as long as the mantelpiece itself. It
had two long shelves shut away behind three
glass doors through which the treasures within
were dimly visible. When I swung these open
it felt like opening a tomb—cold, musty
views.
There was
a big Bible, some prayer-books, and a few
other books elaborately bound with that
heavy fancifulness that we are learning to call
Victorian. One of these was on The Wonders
of the Great West
; another was about
The Female Saints of America.
I took it
down and glanced through it, but concluded
that one had to be a female saint, or at least
an aspirant, to appreciate it. Then there were
things made out of dried flowers, out of hair,
out of shells, out of pine-cones. There were
It always tasted just that way to me when
I was a boy,
he said, but I never thought
much about it—I thought it was just a
closet-taste.
And it isn’t only the taste,
I went on.
It does something to me, to my state of
mind. I’m afraid to try the garret.
Garrets are different,
said Jonathan.
But I’d leave them. They can wait.
They’ve waited a good while, of course,
I said.
And so we left the garrets. We came back to them later, and were glad we had done so. But that is a story by itself.
Meanwhile, in the evenings, Jonathan helped.
I’m afraid you were more or less right
about the odd jobs,
I admitted one night.
They do seem to accumulate.
I was holding
a candle while he set up a loose latch.
They’ve been accumulating a good many
years,
said Jonathan.
Yes, that’s it. And so the doors all stick,
and the latches won’t latch, and the shades
are sulky or wild, and the pantry shelves—have
you noticed?—they’re all warped so
they rock when you set a dish on them.
And the chairs pull apart,
added Jonathan.
Yes. Of course after we catch up we’ll be
all right.
I wouldn’t count too much on catching
up.
Why not?
I asked.
The farm has had a long start.
But you’re a Yankee,
I argued; the
Yankee nature fairly feeds on such jobs—‘putter
jobs,’ you know.
Yes, I know.
Only, of course, you get on faster if you’re
not too particular about having the exact
tool—
Considered as a Yankee, Jonathan’s only fault is that when he does a job he likes to have a very special tool to do it with. Often it is so special that I have never heard its name before and then I consider he is going too far. He merely thinks I haven’t gone far enough. Perhaps such matters must always remain matters of opinion. But even with this handicap we did begin to catch up, and we could have done this a good deal faster if it had not been for the pump.
The pump was a clear case of new wine in
an old bottle. It was large and very strong.
What’s the matter there?
Why, it seems to have pulled clear of its
moorings. You look at it.
He looked, with that expression of meditative
resourcefulness peculiar to the true
Yankee countenance. H’m—needs new
wood there,—and there; that stuff’ll never
hold.
And so the old bottle was patched with
new skin at the points of strain, and in the zest
of reconstruction Jonathan almost forgot to
regret the walk. We’ll have it to-morrow
night,
he said: the moon will be better.
The next evening I met him below the turn of
the road. Wonderful night it’s going to be,
he said, as he pushed his wheel up the last hill.
Yes—
I said, a little uneasily. I was
thinking of the kitchen pump. Finally I
brought myself to face it.
There seems to be some trouble—with
the pump,
I said apologetically. I felt that
it was my fault, though I knew it wasn’t.
More trouble? What sort of trouble?
Oh, it wheezes and makes funny sucking
noises, and the water spits and spits, and then
bursts out, and then doesn’t come at all. It
sounds a little like a cat with a bone in its
throat.
Probably just that,
said Jonathan:
grain of sand in the valve, very likely.
Shall I get a plumber?
Plumber! I’ll fix it myself in three shakes
of a lamb’s tail.
Well,
I said, relieved: you can do that
after supper while I see that all the chickens
are in, and those turkeys, and then we’ll have
our walk.
Accordingly I went off on my tour. When I returned the pale moon-shadows were already beginning to show in the lingering dusk of the fading daylight. Indoors seemed very dark, but on the kitchen floor a candle sat, flaring and dipping.
Jonathan,
I called, I’m ready.
Well, I’m not,
said a voice at my feet.
Why, where are you? Oh, there!
I bent
down and peered under the sink at a shape
crouched there. Haven’t you finished?
Finished! I’ve just got the thing apart.
I should say you had!
I regarded the
various pieces of iron and leather and wood as
they lay, mere dismembered shapes, about
the dim kitchen.
It doesn’t seem as if it would ever come
together again—to be a pump,
I said in
some depression.
Oh, that’s easy! It’s just a question of
time.
How much time?
Heaven knows.
Was it the valve?
It was—several things.
His tone had the vagueness born of concentration. I could see that this was no time to press for information. Besides, in the field of mechanics, as Jonathan has occasionally pointed out to me, I am rather like a traveler who has learned to ask questions in a foreign tongue, but not to understand the answers.
Well, I’ll bring my sewing out here—or
would you rather have me read to you?
There’s something in the last number of—
No—get your sewing—blast that
screw! Why doesn’t it start?
Evidently sewing was better than the last number of anything. I settled myself under a lamp, while Jonathan, in the twilight beneath the sink, continued his mystic rites, with an accompaniment of mildly vituperative or persuasive language, addressed sometimes to his tools, sometimes to the screws and nuts and other parts, sometimes against the men who made them or the plumbers who put them in. Now and then I held a candle, or steadied some perverse bit of metal while he worked his will upon it. And at last the phœnix did indeed rise, the pump was again a pump,—at least it looked like one.
Suppose it doesn’t work,
I suggested.
Suppose it does,
said Jonathan.
He began to pump furiously. Pour in
water there!
he directed. Keep on pouring—don’t
stop—never mind if she does spout.
I poured and he pumped, and there were the
usual sounds of a pump resuming activity:
gurglings and spittings, suckings and sudden
spoutings; but at last it seemed to get its
breath—a few more long strokes of the
handle, and the water poured.
What time is it?
he asked.
Oh, fairly late—about ten—ten minutes
past.
Instead of our walk, we stood for a moment
under the big maples before the house
and looked out into a sea of moonlight. It
silvered the sides of the old gray barns and
washed over the blossoming apple trees beyond
the house. Is there anything more
sweetly still than the stillness of moonlight
over apple blossoms! As we went out to
the barns to lock up, even the little hencoops
looked poetic. Passing one of them, we half
roused the feathered family within and heard
muffled peepings and a smothered clk-clk.
Jonathan was by this time so serene that I
felt I could ask him a question that had occurred
to me.
Jonathan, how long
is
three shakes of a lamb’s tail?
Apparently, my dear, it is the whole evening,
he answered unruffled.
The next night was drizzly. Well, we would
have books instead of a walk. We lighted a
fire, May though it was, and settled down before
it. What shall we read?
I asked, feeling
very cozy.
Jonathan was filling his pipe with a leisurely
deliberation good to look upon. With the
match in his hand he paused—Oh, I meant
to tell you—those young turkeys of yours—they
were still out when I came through
the yard. I wonder if they went in all right.
I have always noticed that if the turkeys
grow up very fat and strutty and suggestive
of Thanksgiving, Jonathan calls them our
turkeys,
but in the spring, when they are
committing all the naughtinesses of wild and
silly youth, he is apt to allude to them as
those young turkeys of yours.
I rose wearily. No. They never go in all
right when they get out at this time—especially
on wet nights. I’ll have to find them
and stow them.
Jonathan got up, too, and laid down his
pipe. You’ll need the lantern,
he said.
We went out together into the May drizzle—a
good thing to be out in, too, if you are
out for the fun of it. But when you are hunting
silly little turkeys who literally don’t
know enough to go in when it rains, and when
you expected and wanted to be doing something
else, then it seems different, the drizzle
We waded through the drenched grass and the tall, dripping weeds, listening for the faint, foolish peeping of the wanderers. Some we found under piled fence rails, some under burdock leaves, some under nothing more protective than a plantain leaf. By ones and twos we collected them, half drowned yet shrilly remonstrant, and dropped them into the dry shed where they belonged. Then we returned to the house, very wet, feeling the kind of discouragement that usually besets those who are forced to furnish prudence to fools.
Nine o’clock,
said Jonathan, and we’re
too wet to sit down. If you could just shut in
those turkeys on wet days—
Shut them in! Didn’t I shut them in!
They must have got out since four o’clock.
Isn’t the shed tight?
he asked.
Chicken-tight, but not turkey-tight, apparently.
Nothing is turkey-tight.
They’re bigger than chickens.
Not in any one spot they aren’t. They’re
no dimension
except length, their bodies are mere imaginary
points to hang feathers on. You don’t
know little turkeys.
It might be said that, having undertaken to raise turkeys, we had to expect them to act like turkeys. But there were other interruptions in our evenings where our share of responsibility was not so plain. For example, one wet evening in early June we had kindled a little fire and I had brought the lamp forward. The pump was quiescent, the little turkeys were all tucked up in the turkey equivalent for bed, the farm seemed to be cuddling down into itself for the night. We sat for a moment luxuriously regarding the flames, listening to the sighing of the wind, feeling the sweet damp air as it blew in through the open windows. I was considering which book it should be and at last rose to possess myself of two or three.
Sh—h—h!
said Jonathan, a warning
finger raised.
I stood listening.
I don’t hear anything,
I said.
Sh—h!
he repeated. There!
This time, indeed, I heard faint bird-notes.
Young robins!
He sprang up and made
for the back door with long strides.
I peered out through the window of the orchard room, but saw only the reflection of the firelight and the lamp. Suddenly I heard Jonathan whistle and I ran to the back porch. Blackness pressed against my eyes.
Where are you?
I called into it.
The whistle again, quite near me, apparently out of the air.
Bring a lantern,
came a whisper.
I got it and came back and down the steps to the path, holding up my light and peering about in search of the voice.
Where are you? I can’t see you at all.
Right here—look—here—up!
The
voice was almost over my head.
I searched the dark masses of the tree—oh, yes! the lantern revealed the heel of a shoe in a crotch, and above,—yes, undoubtedly, the rest of Jonathan, stretched out along a limb.
Oh! What are you doing up there?
Get me a long stick—hoe—clothes-pole—anything
I found the rake and reached it up to him. From the dark beyond him came a distressed mew.
Now the lantern. Hang it on the teeth.
He drew it up to him, then, rake in one hand
and lantern in the other, proceeded to squirm
out along the limb.
Now I see her.
I saw her too—a huddle of yellow, crouched close.
I’ll have her in a minute. She’ll either
have to drop or be caught.
And in fact this distressing dilemma was already becoming plain to the marauder herself. Her mewings grew louder and more frequent. A few more contortions brought the climber nearer his victim. A little judicious urging with the rake and she was within reach. The rake came down to me, and a long, wild mew announced that Jonathan had clutched.
I don’t see how you’re going to get down,
I said, mopping the rain-mist out of my eyes.
Watch me,
panted the contortionist.
I watched a curious mass descend the tree, the lantern, swinging and jerking, fitfully illumined the pair, and I could see, now a knee and an ear, now a hand and a yellow furry shape, now a white collar, nose, and chin. There was a last, long, scratching slide. I snatched the lantern, and Jonathan stood beside me, holding by the scruff of her neck a very much frazzled yellow cat. We returned to the porch where her victims were—one alive, in a basket, two dead, beside it, and Jonathan, kneeling, held the cat’s nose close to the little bodies while he boxed her ears—once, twice; remonstrant mews rose wild, and with a desperate twist the culprit backed out under his arm and leaped into the blackness.
Don’t believe she’ll eat young robin for a
day or two,
said Jonathan.
Is that what they were? Where were
they?
Under the tree. She’d knocked them
out.
Could you put this one back? He seems
all right—only sort of naked in spots.
We’ll half cover the basket and hang it
in the tree. His folks’ll take care of him.
Next morning early there began the greatest
to-do among the robins in the orchard.
They shrieked their comments on the affair
at the top of their lungs. They screamed
abusively at Jonathan and me as we stood
watching. They say we did it!
said Jonathan.
I call that gratitude!
I wish I could record that from that evening the cat was a reformed character. An impression had indeed been made. All next day she stayed under the porch, two glowing eyes in the dark. The second day she came out, walking indifferent and debonair, as cats do. But when Jonathan took down the basket from the tree and made her smell of it, she flattened her ears against her head and shot under the porch again.
But lessons grow dim and temptation is
freshly importunate. It was not two weeks
before Jonathan was up another tree on the
same errand, and when I considered the number
of nests in our orchard, and the number
of cats—none of them really our cats—on
the place, I felt that the position of overruling
These things—tinkering of latches and chairs, pump-mending, rescue work in the orchard and among the poultry—filled our evenings fairly full. Yet these are only samples, and not particularly representative samples either. They were the sort of things that happened oftenest, the common emergencies incidental to the life. But there were also the uncommon emergencies, each occurring seldom but each adding its own touch of variety to the tale of our evenings.
For instance, there was the time of the
great drought, when Jonathan, coming in
from a tour of the farm at dusk, said, I’ve
got to go up and dig out the spring-hole
across the swamp. Everything else is dry,
and the cattle are getting crazy.
Can I help?
I asked, not without regrets
for our books and our evening—it was
a black night, and I had had hopes.
Yes. Come and hold the lantern.
We went. The spring-hole had been trodden
by the poor, eager creatures into a useless
Keep ’em back,
he said. They’ll have
it all trodden up again—Hi! You! Ge’
back ’ere!
There is as special a lingo for
talking to cattle as there is for talking to
babies. I used it as well as I could. I swung
the lantern in their faces, I brandished the
hoe-handle at them, I jabbed at them recklessly.
They snorted and backed and closed
in again,—crazy, poor things, with the
smell of the water. It was an evening’s battle
for us. Jonathan dug and dug, and then laid
rails, and the precious water filled in slowly,
grew to a dark pool, and the thirsty creatures
panted and snuffed in the dark just outside
the radius of the hoe-handle, until at last we
could let them in. I had forgotten my books,
for we had come close to the earth and the
creatures of the earth. The cows were our
sisters and the steers our brothers that night.
Sometimes the emergency was in the barn—a broken halter and trouble among the horses, or perhaps a new calf. Sometimes a stray creature,—cow or horse,—grazing along the roadside, got into our yard and threatened our corn and squashes and my poor, struggling flower-beds. Once it was a break in the wire fence around Jonathan’s muskmelon patch in the barn meadow. The cows had just been turned in, and if it wasn’t mended that evening it meant no melons that season, also melon-tainted cream for days.
Once or twice each year it was the drainpipe from the sink. The drain, like the pump, was an innovation. Our ancestors had always carried out whatever they couldn’t use or burn, and dumped it on the far edge of the orchard. In a thinly settled community, there is much to be said for this method: you know just where you are. But we had the drain, and occasionally we didn’t know just where we were.
Coffee grounds,
Jonathan would suggest,
with a touch of sternness.
No,
I would reply firmly; coffee
grounds are always burned.
What then?
Don’t know. I’ve poked and poked.
A gleam in the corner of Jonathan’s eye—What
with?
Oh, everything.
Yes, I suppose so. For instance what?
Why—hair-pin first, of course, and then
scissors, and then button-hook—you needn’t
smile. Button-hooks are wonderful for
cleaning out pipes. And then I took a pail-handle
and straightened it out—
Jonathan
was laughing by this time—Well, I
have to use what I have, don’t I?
Yes, of course. And after the pail-handle?
After that—oh, yes. I tried your cleaning-rod.
The devil you did!
Not at all. It wasn’t hurt a bit. It just
wouldn’t go down, that’s all. So then I
thought I’d wait for you.
And now what do you expect?
I expect you to fix it.
Of course, after that, there was nothing for
Jonathan to do but fix it. Usually it did not
take long. Sometimes it did. Once it took a
Hamlet,
shouted, Hold ’em! There’s
half a freezer of ice-cream down here we can
finish.
Sure enough there was! And then
he wouldn’t have to pack it down. We had
it up. We looted the pantry as only irresponsible
adults can loot, in their own pantry,
and the evening ended in luxurious ease.
Some time in the black of the night our
friends left, and I suppose the sound of their
carriage-wheels along the empty road set
many a neighbor wondering, through his
sleep, Who’s sick now?
How could they
know it was only a plumbing party?
As I look back on this evening it seems one
of the pleasantest of the year. It isn’t so
much what you do, of course, as the way you
feel about it, that makes the difference between
pleasant and unpleasant. Shall we say
of that evening that we meant to read aloud?
Or that we meant to have a quiet evening
with friends? Not at all. We say, with all the
conviction in the world, that we meant, on
pièce de résistance.
Toward this our lives had been yearning,
and lo! they had arrived!
Some few things, however, are hard to meet in that spirit. When the pigs broke out of the pen, about nine o’clock, and Hiram was away, and Mrs. Hiram needed our help to get them in—there was no use in pretending that we meant to do it. Moreover, the labor of rounding up pigs is one of mingled arduousness and delicacy. Pigs in clover was once a popular game, but pigs in a dark orchard is not a game at all, and it will, I am firmly convinced, never be popular. It is, I repeat, not a game, yet probably the only way to keep one’s temper at all is to regard it, for the time being, as a major sport, like football and deep-sea fishing and mountain-climbing, where you are expected to take some risks and not think too much about results as such. On this basis it has, perhaps, its own rewards. But the attitude is difficult to maintain, especially late at night.
On that particular evening, as we returned,
breathless and worn, to the house, I could
I
never wanted to keep pigs anyway.
Who says we’re keeping them?
remarked
Jonathan; and then we laughed and laughed.
You needn’t think I’m laughing because
you said anything specially funny,
I said.
It’s only because I’m tired enough to laugh
at anything.
The pump, too, tried my philosophy now
and then. One evening when I had worn my
hands to the bone cutting out thick leather
washers for Jonathan to insert somewhere in
the circulatory system of that same monster,
I finally broke out, Oh, dear! I hate the
pump! I wanted a moonlight walk!
I’ll have the thing together now in a
jiffy,
said Jonathan.
Jiffy! There’s no use talking about jiffies
at half-past ten at night,
I snarled. I
was determined anyway to be as cross as I
liked. Why can’t we find a really simple
way of living? This isn’t simple. It’s highly
complex and very difficult.
You cut those washers very well,
suggested
Jonathan soothingly, but I was not
prepared to be soothed.
It was hateful work, though. Now, look
what we’ve done this evening! We’ve shut
up a setting hen, and housed the little turkeys,
and driven that cow back into the road,
and mended a window-shade and the dog’s
chain, and now we’ve fixed the pump—and
it won’t stay fixed at that!
Fair evening’s work,
murmured Jonathan
as he rapidly assembled the pump.
Yes, as work. But all I mean is—it isn’t
simple.
Farm life has a reputation for simplicity
that I begin to think is overdone. It
doesn’t seem to me that my evening has been
any more simple than if we had dressed for
dinner and gone to the opera or played bridge.
In fact, at this distance, that, compared with
this, has the simplicity of a—I don’t know
what!
I like your climaxes,
said Jonathan, and
we both laughed. There! I’m done. Now
suppose we go, in our simple way, and lock up
the barns and chicken-houses.
And so the evenings came and went, each
offering a prospect of fair and quiet things—books
and firelight and moonlight and talk;
critters
were at rest. Evenings when we sat
under the lamp and read, when we walked
and walked along moonlit roads or lay on the
slopes of moon-washed meadows. It was on
such an evening that we faced the vagaries of
farm life and searched for a philosophy to
cover them.
I’m beginning to see that it will never be
any better,
I said.
Probably not,
said Jonathan, talking
around his pipe.
You seem contented enough about it.
I am.
I don’t know that I’m contented, but
perhaps I’m resigned. I believe it’s necessary.
Of course it’s necessary.
Jonathan often has the air of having known
since infancy the great truths about life that
I have just discovered. I overlooked this, and
went on, You see, we’re right down close to
And that knocks the bottom out of our
evenings.
Now if we’re in the city, playing bridge,
somebody else is making those adjustments
for us. We’re like the princess with seventeen
mattresses between her and the pea.
She felt it, though,
said Jonathan. It
kept her awake.
I know. She had a poor night. But even
she would hardly have maintained that she
felt it as she would have done if the mattresses
hadn’t been there.
True,
said Jonathan.
Farm life is the pea without the mattresses—
I went on.
Sounds a little cheerless,
said Jonathan.
Well—of course, it isn’t really cheerless
at all. But neither is it easy. It’s full of remorseless
demands for immediate adjustment.
That was the way the princess felt about
her pea.
The princess was a snippy little thing.
But after all, probably her life was full of
adjustments of other sorts. She couldn’t call
her soul her own a minute, I suppose.
Perhaps that was why she ran away,
suggested Jonathan.
Of course it was. She ran away to find the
simple life and didn’t find it.
No. She found the pea—even with all
those mattresses.
And we’ve run away, and found several
peas, and fewer mattresses,
said Jonathan.
Let’s not get confused—
I’m not confused,
said Jonathan.
Well, I shall be in a minute if I don’t look
out. You can’t follow a parallel too far.
What I mean is, that if you run away from
one kind of complexity you run into another
kind.
What are you going to do about it?
I’m going to like it all,
I answered, and
make believe I meant to do it.
After that we were silent awhile. Then I
tried again. You know your trick of waltzing
with a glass of water on your head?
Yes.
Well, I wonder if we couldn’t do that
with our souls.
That suggests to me a rather curious
picture,
said Jonathan.
Well—you know what I mean. When
you do that, your body takes up all the jolts
and jiggles before they get to the top of your
head, so the glass stays quiet.
Well—
Well, I don’t see why—only, of course,
our souls aren’t really anything like glasses
of water, and it would be perfectly detestable
to think of carrying them around carefully
like that.
Perhaps you’d better back out of that
figure of speech,
suggested Jonathan. Go
back to your princess. Say,
every man his
own mattress.
No. Any figure is wrong. The trouble
with all of them is that as soon as you use
one it begins to get in your way, and say all
sorts of things for you that you never meant
at all. And then if you notice it, it bothers
you, and if you don’t notice it, you get drawn
into crooked thinking.
And yet you can’t think without them.
No, you can’t think without them.
Well—where are we, anyway?
he
asked placidly.
I don’t know at all. Only I feel sure that
leading the simple life doesn’t depend on the
things you do it
with.
Feeding your own cows
and pigs and using pumps and candles brings
you no nearer to it than marketing by telephone
and using city water supply and electric
lighting. I don’t know what does bring
you nearer, but I’m sure it must be something
inside you.
That sounds rather reasonable,
said
Jonathan; almost scriptural—
Yes, I know,
I said.
It is late afternoon in mid-September. I
stand in my garden sniffing the raw air, and
wondering, as always at this season,
will
there be frost to-night or will there not? Of
course if I were a woodchuck or a muskrat, or
any other really intelligent creature, I should
know at once and act accordingly, but being
only a stupid human being, I am thrown
back on conjecture, assisted by the thermometer,
and an appeal to Jonathan.
Too much wind for frost,
says he.
Sure? I’d hate to lose my nasturtiums
quite so early.
You won’t lose ’em. Look at the thermometer
if you don’t believe me. If it’s
above forty you’re safe.
I look, and try to feel reassured. But I am not quite easy in my mind until next morning when, running out before breakfast, I make the rounds and find everything untouched.
But a few days later the alarm comes again.
There is no wind this time, and, what is
worse, an ominous silence falls at dusk over
the orchard and meadow. Why is everything
so still?
I ask myself. Oh, of course—the
katydids aren’t talking—and the
crickets, and all the other whirr-y things.
Ah! That means business! My poor garden!
Jonathan!
I call, as I feel rather than
see his shape whirling noiselessly in at the
big gate after his ride up from the station.
Help me cover my nasturtiums. There’ll
be frost to-night.
Maybe,
says Jonathan’s voice.
Not maybe at all—surely. Listen to the
katydids!
You mean, listen to the absence of katydids.
Very well. The point is, I want newspapers.
No. The point is, I am to bring newspapers.
Exactly.
And tuck up your nasturtiums for the
night in your peculiarly ridiculous fashion—
I know it looks ridiculous, but really it’s
sensible. There may be weeks of summer
after this.
And so the nasturtiums are tucked up,
cozily hidden under the big layers of sheets,
whose corners we fasten down with stones.
To be sure, the garden is rather a funny
sight, with these pale shapes sprawling over
its beds. But it pays. For in the morning,
though over in the vegetable garden the
squash leaves and lima beans are blackened
and limp, my nasturtiums are still pert and
crisp. I pull off the papers, wondering what
the passers-by have thought, and lo! my gay
garden, good for perhaps two weeks more!
But a day arrives when even newspaper coddling is of no avail. Sometimes it is in late September, sometimes not until October, but when it comes there is no resisting.
The sun goes down, leaving a clear sky
paling to green at the horizon. A still cold
falls upon the world, and I feel that it is
the end. Shears in hand, I cut everything I
can—nasturtiums down to the ground,—leaves,
buds, and all,—feathery sprays of
cosmos, asters by the armful. Those last
So I fill my bowls and vases, and next morning I go out, well knowing what I shall see. It is a beautiful sight, too, if one can forget its meaning. The whole golden-green world of autumn has been touched with silver. In the low-lying swamp beyond the orchard it is almost like a light snowfall. The meadows rising beyond the barns are silvered over wherever the long tree-shadows still lie. And in my garden, too, where the shadows linger, every leaf is frosted, but as soon as the sun warms them through, leaf and twig turn dark and droop to the ground. It is the end.
Except, indeed, for my brave marigolds
and calendulas and little button asters. It is
for this reason that I have given them space
all summer, nipping them back when they
tried to blossom early, for they seem a bit
crude compared with the other flowers. But
now that frost is here, my feelings warm to
them. I cannot criticize their color and texture,
Well, then, the frost has come! And after the first pang of realization, I find that, curiously enough, the worst is over. Since it has come, let it come! And now—hurrah for the garden house-cleaning! The garden is dead—the garden of yesterday! Long live the garden—the garden of to-morrow! For suddenly my mind has leaped ahead to spring.
I can hardly wait for breakfast to be over, before I am out in working clothes, pulling up things—not weeds now, but flowers, or what were flowers. Nasturtiums, asters, cosmos, snapdragon, stock, late-blooming cornflowers—up they all come, all the annuals, and the biennials that have had their season. I fling them together in piles, and soon have small haystacks all along my grass paths, and—there I am! Down again to the good brown earth!
It is with positive satisfaction that I stand
There is perhaps no season of all the garden
year that brings more real delight to the
gardener, no time so stimulating to the imagination.
This year in the garden has been
good, but next year shall be better. All the
failures, or near-failures, shall of course be
turned into successes, and the successes shall
Then, there are my foxgloves. Some of
them I have already transplanted, but not
all. There is a little corner full of stocky
yearlings that I must change now. And that
same corner can be used for poppies. I have
kept seeds of this year’s poppies—funny
little brown pepper-shakers, with tiny holes
at the end through which I shake out the fine
seed dust. Doubtless they would attend to
all this without my help, but I like to be sure
Biennials, like the foxglove and canterbury bells, are of course, the difficult children of the garden, because you have to plan not only for next year but for the year after. Next year’s bloom is secured—unless they winter-kill—in this year’s young plants, growing since spring, or even since the fall before. These I transplant for next summer’s beauty. But for the year after I like to take double precautions. Already I have tiny seedlings, started since August, but besides these I sow seed, too late to start before spring. For a severe winter may do havoc, and I shall then need the early start given by fall sowing.
As I work on, I discover all sorts of treasures—young
plants, seedlings from all the
big-folk of my garden. Young larkspurs
surround the bushy parent clumps, and
the ground near the forget-me-nots is fairly
carpeted with little new ones. I have found
that, though the old forget-me-nots will live
through, it pays to pull out the most ragged
of them and trust to the youngsters to fill
When my back aches from this kind of sorting and shifting, I straighten up and look about me again. Ah! The phlox! Time now to attend to that!
My white phlox is really the most distinguished thing in my garden. I have pink and lavender, too, but any one can have pink and lavender by ordering them from a florist. They can have white, too, but not my white. For mine never saw a florist; it is an inheritance.
Sixty or seventy years ago there was a
beautiful little garden north of the old house
tended and loved by a beautiful lady. The
lady died, and the garden did not long outlive
her. Its place was taken by a crab-apple
orchard, which flourished, bore blossom and
fruit, until in its turn it grew old, while the
garden had faded to a dim tradition. But one
day in August, a few years ago, I discovered
Here and there I have let the pink and
lavender phlox come in, for they begin to
bloom two weeks earlier, when the garden
needs color. But always my white must
dominate. And it does. Most wonderful of
Ah, well! the phlox has passed now, and its trim green leaves are brown and crackly. I can do what I like with it after this. So when my other transplanting grows tiresome, I fall upon my phlox. Every year some of it needs thinning, so quickly does it spread. I take the spading-fork, and, with what seems like utter ruthlessness, I pry out from the thickest centers enough good roots to give the rest breathing and growing space. Along the path edges I always have to cut out encroaching roots each year, or else soon there would be no path. But all that I take out is precious, either to give to friends for their gardens, or to enlarge the edges of my own. For this phlox needs almost no care, and will fight grass and weeds for itself.
There are phlox seedlings, too, all over the
garden, but I have no way of telling what color
they are, though usually I can detect the
white by its foliage. I take them up and set
This is the time of year, too, when I give some attention to the rocks in my garden. Of course, in order to have a garden at all, it was necessary to take out enough rock to build quite a respectable stone wall. But that was not the end. There never will be an end. A Connecticut garden grows rocks like weeds, and one must expect to keep on taking them out each fall. The rest of the year I try to ignore them, but after frost I like to make a fresh raid, and get rid of another wheelbarrow load or so. And I always notice that for one barrow load of stones that go out, it takes at least two barrow loads of earth to fill in. Thus an excellent circulation is maintained, and the garden does not stagnate. Moreover, I take great pleasure in showing my friends—especially friends from the more earthy sections of New York and farther west—the piles of rock and the parts of certain stone walls about the place that have been literally made out of the cullings of my garden. They never believe me.
As I am thus occupied,—digging, planting, thinning, sowing,—I find it one of the happiest seasons of the year. It is partly the stimulus of the autumn air, partly the pleasure of getting at the ground. I think there are some of us, city folk though we be, who must have the giant Antæus for ancestor. We still need to get in close touch with the earth now and then. Children have a true instinct with their love of barefoot play in the dirt, and there are grown folks who still love it—but we call it gardening. The sight and the feel and the smell of my brown garden beds gives me a pleasure that is very deep and probably very primitive.
But there is another source of pleasure in my fall gardening—a pleasure not of the senses but of the imagination.
For as I do my work my fancy is active.
As I transplant my young hollyhocks, I see
them, not little round-leaved bunches in my
hand, but tall and stately, aflare with colors—yellows,
whites, pinks. As I dig about my
larkspur and stake out its seedlings, they
spire above me in heavenly blues. As I arrange
the clumps of coarse-leaved young
I sometimes think I am coming to classify my friends according to the way they act when I talk about my garden. On this basis, there are three sorts of people.
First there are those who are obviously not interested. Such as these feel no answering thrill, even at the sight of a florist’s spring catalogue. A weed inspires in them no desire to pull it. They may, however, be really nice people if they are still young; for, except by special grace, no one under thirty need be expected to care about gardens—it is a mature taste. But in the mean time I turn our talk in other channels.
Then there are the people who, when I
approach the subject, brighten up, look intelligent,
even eager, but in a moment make
it clear that what they are eager for is a
chance to talk about their own gardens.
Mine is merely the stepping-stone, the bridge,
Aren’t those peonies lovely?
I suggest.
Yes,
dreamily; you know I can’t have
that shade in my garden because—
and she
trails off into a disquisition that I could, just
at that moment, do without.
Look at the height of that larkspur!
I say.
Yes—but, you know, it wouldn’t do for
me to have larkspur when I go away so early.
What I need is things for April and May.
Well, I am not trying to
I
am sometimes goaded into protesting. sell you any,I
only wanted you to say they are pretty—pretty
right here in
my garden.
Yes—yes—of course they are pretty—they’re
lovely—you have a lovely garden,
you know.
She pulls herself up to give
this tribute, but soon her eyes get the faraway
look in them again, and she is murmuring,
Oh, I must write Edward to see
about that hedge. Tell me, my dear, if you
had a brick wall, would you have vines on it
or wall-fruit?
It is of no use. I cannot hold her long. I sometimes think she was nicer when she had no garden of her own. Perhaps she thinks I was nicer when I had none.
But there is another kind of garden manners—a
kind that subtly soothes, cheers,
perhaps inebriates. It is the manner of the
friend who may, indeed, have a garden, but
who looks at mine with the eye of adoption,
temporarily at least. She walks down its
paths, singling out this or that for notice.
She suggests, she even criticizes, tenderly, as
one who tells you an even
to arrange your little daughter’s hair.
She offers you roots and seeds and seedlings
from her garden, and—last touch of flattery—she
begs seeds and seedlings from yours.more becoming
way
For garden purposes, give me the manners of this third class. And, indeed, not for garden purposes alone. They are useful as applied to many things—children, particularly, and houses.
Undoubtedly the demand that I make
upon my friends is a form of vanity, yet I
cannot seem to feel ashamed of it. I admit at
once that not the least part of my pleasure in
get notice.
As
people drive by I hope they enjoy my phlox.
I furtively glance to see if they have an eye
for the foxglove. I wonder if the calendulas
are so tall that they hide the asters. And if,
as I bend over my weeding, an automobile
whirling past lets fly an appreciative phrase—lovely
flowers—
wonderful yellow
of—
garden there,
—my ears are quick
to receive it and I forgive the eddies of gasolene
and dust that are also left by the vanishing
visitant.
About few things can one be so brazen in
one’s enjoyment of recognition. One’s house,
one’s clothes, one’s work, one’s children, all
these demand a certain modesty of demeanor,
But it is not alone the results of my stewardship that give me joy. Its very processes are good. Delight in the earth is a primitive instinct. Digging is naturally pleasant, hoeing is pleasant, raking is pleasant, and then there is the weeding. For I am not the only one who sows seeds in my garden. One of my friends remarked cheerfully that he had planted twenty-seven different vegetables in his garden, and the Lord had planted two hundred and twenty-seven other kinds of things.
This is where the weeding comes in. Now a good deal has been said about the labor of weeding, but little about the gratifications of weeding. I don’t mean weeding with a hoe. I mean yanking up, with movements suited to the occasion, each individual growing thing that doesn’t belong. Surely I am not the only one to have felt the pleasure of this. They come up so nicely, and leave such soft earth behind! And intellect is needed, too, for each weed demands its own way of handling: the adherent plantain needing a slow, firm, drawing motion, but very satisfactory when it comes; the evasive clover requiring that all its sprawling runners shall be gathered up in one gentle, tactful pull; the tender shepherd’s purse coming easily on a straight twitch; the tough ragweed that yields to almost any kind of jerk. Even witch-grass, the bane of the farmer, has its rewarding side, when one really does get out its handful of wicked-looking, crawly, white tubers.
Weeding is most fun when the weeds are
not too small. Yes, from the aspect of a sport
there is something to be said for letting weeds
grow. Pulling out little tender ones is poor
Surely, weeding is good fun. If faults could be yanked out of children in the same entertaining way, the orphan asylums would soon be emptied through the craze for adoption as a major sport.
One of the pleasantest mornings of my life was spent weeding, in the rain, a long-neglected corner of my garden, while a young friend stood around the edges and explained the current political situation to me, and carted away armfuls of green stuff as I handed them out to him. The rain drizzled, and the air was fragrant with the smell of wet earth and bruised stems. Ideally, of course, weeds should never reach this state of sportive rankness. But most of my friends admit, under pressure, that there are corners where such things do happen.
Naturally, all this is assuming that one is one’s own gardener. There may be pleasure in having a garden kept up by a real gardener, but that always seems to me a little like having a doll and letting somebody else dress and undress it. My garden must never grow so big that I cannot take care of it—and neglect it—myself.
In saying this, however, I don’t count rocks. When it comes to rocks, I call in Jonathan. And it often comes to rocks.
For mine is a Connecticut garden. Now
in the beginning Connecticut was composed
entirely of rocks. Then the little earth
gnomes, fearing that no one would ever come
there to give them sport, sprinkled a little
earth amongst the rocks, partly covered
some, wholly covered others, and then hid to
see what the gardeners would do about it.
And ever since the gardeners have been patiently,
or impatiently, tucking in their seeds
and plants in the thimblefuls of earth left by
the gnomes. They have been picking out the
rocks, or blowing them up, or burying them,
or working around them; and every winter
the little gnomes gather and push up a new
Rocks?
my friends say. Do you mind
the rocks? But they are a special beauty!
Why, I have a rock in my garden that I have
treated—
Very well,
I interrupt rudely.
A rock is
all very well. If I had a
rock in my garden I
could treat it, too. But how about a garden
that is all rocks?
Oh—why—choose another spot.
Whereupon I reply, You don’t know
Connecticut.
Ever since I began having a garden I have
had my troubles with the rocks, but the
worst time came when, in a mood of enthusiastic
and absolutely unintelligent optimism,
I decided to have a bit of smooth grass in the
middle of my garden. I wanted it very much.
The place was too restless; you couldn’t sit
down anywhere. I felt that I had to have a
clear green spot where I could take a chair
and a book. I selected the spot, marked it off
with string, and began to loosen up the earth
very
big one, and only four inches below the
surface. Grass would never grow there in a
dry season. I moved to another part. Another
rock, big too! I prodded all over the
allotted space, and found six big fellows lurking
just below the top of the soil. Evidently
it was a case for calling in Jonathan.
He came, grumbling a little, as a man
should, but very efficient, armed with two
crowbars and equipped with a natural genius
for manipulating rocks. He made a few
well-placed remarks about queer people who
choose to have grass where flowers would
grow, and flowers where grass would grow,
also about Connecticut being intended for a
quarry and not for a garden anyhow. But all
Please,
Jonathan, don’t step back any farther; you’ll
trample the forget-me-nots!
Jonathan grumbled a little
about being expected to pick a half-ton pebble
out of the garden with his fingers, or lead
it out with a string.Could you
manage to roll this fellow out along that
path and not across the mangled bodies of
the marigolds?
Oh, well, of course, if you
And Jonathan responds nobly to the
flattery of this remark, and does indeed guide
the huge thing, eases it along the narrow
path, grazes the marigolds but leaves them
can’t do it I’ll
have to let the marigolds go this year. But
you do such wonderful things with a crowbar,
I thought you could probably just guide it a
little.
When the work was done, the edge of the
garden looked like Stonehenge, and the spot
where my grass was to be was nothing but
a yawning pit, crying to be filled. We surveyed
it with interest. If we had a water-supply,
I wouldn’t make a grass-plot,
I
said; I’d make a swimming-pool. It’s deep
enough.
And sit in the middle with your book?
asked Jonathan.
But there was no water-supply, so we filled
it in with earth. Thirty wheelbarrow loads
went in where those rocks came out. And
the little gnomes perched on Stonehenge and
jeered the while. I photographed it, and the
rocks took
well, but as regards the gnomes,
the film was underexposed.
Thus the grass seed was planted. And we
reminded each other of the version of America
once given, with unconscious inspiration,
by a little friend of ours:—
Land where our father died, Land where the pilgrims pried.
It seemed to us to suit the adventure.
As I have said, I love to have my friends love my garden. But there is one thing about it that I find does not always appeal to them pleasantly, and that is its color-schemes. Yet this is not my doing. For in nothing do I feel more keenly the fact of my mere stewardship than in this matter of color-scheme.
I set out with a very rigid one. I was
quite decided in my own mind that what
I wanted was white and salmon-pink and
lavender. Asters, phlox, sweet peas, hollyhocks,
all were to bend themselves to my
rules. At first affairs went very well. White
was easy. White phlox I had, and have—an
inheritance—which from a few roots is
spreading and spreading in waves of whiteness
that grow more luxuriant every year.
But I bought roots of salmon-pink and lavender,
and then my troubles commenced.
About the third season strange things began
to happen. The pink phlox had the strength
of ten. It spread amazingly; but it forgot all
about my rules. It degenerated, some of it—reverted
Moreover, I discovered, lingering among the flowers at dusk, that there were certain colors, most unpleasant by daylight, which at that time took on a new shade, and, for perhaps half an hour before night fell, were richly lovely. This is true of some of the magentas, which at dusk turn suddenly to royal purples and deep lavender-blues that are wonderfully satisfying.
For that half-hour of beauty I spare them. While the sun shines I try to look the other way, and at twilight I linger near them and enjoy their strange, dim glories, born literally of the magic hour. But I have trouble explaining them, by daylight, to some of my visitors who like color-schemes.
Insubordination is contagious. And I
found after a while that my asters were not
running true; queer things were happening
among the sweet peas, and in the ranks of the
hollyhocks all was not as it should be. And
the last charge was made upon me by the
children’s gardens. Children know not color-schemes.
What they demand is flowers, flowers—flowers
to pick and pick, flowers to do
things with. Snapdragon, for instance, is a
jolly playmate, and little fingers love to
pinch its cheeks and see its jaws yawn wide.
But snapdragon tends dangerously toward
the magenta. Then there was the calendula—a
delight to the young, because it blooms
incessantly long past the early frosts, and has
brittle stems that yield themselves to the
clumsiest plucking by small hands. But calendula
ranges from a faded yellow, through
And, finally, there was the portulaca. Children love it, perhaps, best of all. It offers them fresh blossoms and new colors each morning, and it is even more easy to pick than the calendula. Who would deny them portulaca? Yet if this be admitted, one may as well give up the battle. For, as we all know, there is absolutely no color, except green, that portulaca does not perpetrate in its blossoms. It knows no shame.
In short, I am giving up. I am beginning
to say with conviction that color-schemes are
the mark of a narrow and rigid taste—that
they are born of convention and are meant
not for living things but for wall-papers and
portières and clothes. Moreover, I am really
growing callous—or is it, rather, broad?
Colors in my garden that would once have
made my teeth ache now leave them feeling
perfectly comfortable. I find myself looking
with unmoved flesh—no creeps nor withdrawals—upon
a bed of mixed magentas,
scarlets, rose-pinks, and yellow-pinks. I even
look with pleasure. I begin to think there
Indoors, it is another story. When I bring in the spoils of the garden I am again mistress and bend all to my will. Here I’ll have no tricks of color played on me. Sunshine and sky, perhaps, work some spell, for as soon as I get within four walls my prejudices return; scarlets and crimsons and pinks have to live in different rooms. I must have my color-schemes again, and perhaps I am as narrow as the worst. Except, indeed, for the children’s bowls; here the pink and the magenta, the lamb and the lion, may lie down together. But it takes a little child to lead them.
Out in my garden I feel myself less and
less owner, more and more merely steward.
I decree certain paths, and the phlox says,
Paths? Did you say paths?
and obliterates
them in a season’s growth, so that children
walk by faith and not by sight. I decree
iris in one corner, and the primroses say,
Iris? Not at all. This is our bed. Iris indeed!
And yet this slipping of responsibility is pleasant, too. So long as my garden will let me dig in it and weed it and pick it, so long as it entertains my friends for me, so long as it tosses up an occasional rock so that Jonathan does not lose all interest in it, so long as it plays prettily with the children and flings gay greetings to every passer-by, I can find no fault with it.
The joys of stewardship are great and I am well content.
Every year, toward the end of March, I find Jonathan poking about in my sewing-box. And, unless I am very absent-minded, I know what he is after.
No use looking there,
I remark; I keep
my silks put away.
I want red, and as strong as there is.
I know what you want. Here.
and I
hand him a spool of red buttonhole twist.
Ah! Just right!
And for the rest of the
evening his fingers are busy.
Over what? Mending our trout-rods, of course. It is pretty work, calling for strength and precision of grasp, and as he winds and winds, adjusting all the little brass leading-rings, or supplying new ones, and staying points in the bamboo where he suspects weakness, we talk over last year’s trout-pools, and wonder what they will be like this year.
But beyond wonder we do not get, often
for weeks after the trout season is, legislatively,
open.
Jonathan is busy.
I am
busy.
We know that, if April passes, there
is still May and June, and so, if at the end of
April, or early May, we do at last pick up
our rods,—all new-bedight with red silk
windings, and shiny with fresh varnish,—it
is not alone the call of the trout that decides
us, but another call which is to me at least
more imperious, because, if we neglect it now,
there is no May and June in which to heed it.
It is the call of the arbutus.
Any one with New England traditions
knows what this call is. Its appeal is to
something far deeper than the love of a pretty
flower. For it is the flower that, to our fathers
and our grandfathers, and to their fathers and
grandfathers, meant spring; and not spring in
its prettiness and ease, appealing to the idler
in us, nor spring in its melancholy, appealing
to—shall I say the poet in us? But spring
in its blessedness of opportunity, its joyously
triumphant life, appealing to the worker in
us. Here, of course, we touch hands with all
the races of the world for whom winter has
been the supreme menace, spring the supreme
and saving miracle. But each race has its own
This may seem a bit of sentimentality.
And, indeed, we need not expect to find it
expressed by any New England farmer. New
England does not go out in gay companies to
bring back the first blossoms. But New
England does nothing in gay companies. It
has been taught to distrust ceremonies and
expression of any sort. It rejoices with reticence,
it appreciates with a reservation. And
yet I have seen a sprig of arbutus in rough
and clumsy buttonholes on weather-faded
lapels which, the rest of the twelve-month
through, know no other flower. And when,
in unfamiliar country, I have interrupted the
ploughing to ask for guidance, I usually get
it:—Arbutus? Yaas. The’s a lot of it up
along that hillside and in the woods over beyond—’t
was out last week, some of it, I
happened to notice
—this in the apologetic
tone of one who admits a weakness—guess
you’ll find all you want.
I venture to say
that of no other wild flower, except those
which work specific harm or good, could I get
such information.
To many of us, city-bred, the tradition
comes through inheritance. It means, perhaps,
the shy, poetic side of our father’s boyhood,
only half acknowledged, after the New
England fashion, but none the less real and
none the less our possession. It means rare
days, when the city—whose chiefest signs
of spring were the flare of dandelions in yards
and parks and the chatter of English sparrows
on ivy-clad church walls—was left behind,
and we were in the country.
It was a
country excitingly different from the country
of the summer vacation, a country not deeply
green, but warmly brown, and sweet with the
smell of moist, living earth. Green enough,
indeed, in the spring-fed meadows and folds of
the hills, where the early grass flashes into
vividest emerald, but in the woods the soft
mist-colored mazes of multitudinous twigs
still show through their veilings and dustings
of color—palest green of birches, gray-green
of poplar, yellow-green of willows, and
redder tones of the maples; and along the
fence-lines and roadsides—blessed, untidy
fence-lines and roadsides of New England—a
fine penciling of red stems—the cut-back
shad-blow,
daintiest of spring trees,—too slight for a
tree, indeed, though too tall for a bush and
looking less like a tree in blossom than like
floating blossoms caught for a moment among
the twigs. A moment only, for the first gust
loosens them again and carpets the woods
with their petals, but while they last their
whiteness shimmers everywhere.
Such rare days were all blown through with the wonderful wind of spring. Spring wind is really different from any other. It is not a finished thing, like the mellow winds of summer and the cold blasts of winter. It is an imperfect blend of shivering reminiscence and eager promise. One moment it breathes sun and stirring earth, the next it reminds us of old snow in the hollows, and bleak northern slopes.
When, on these days, the wind blew to us,
almost before we saw it, the first greeting of
the arbutus, it always seemed that the day
had found its complete and satisfying expression.
In late March or early April I am likely to
see the first blossom on some friend’s table—I
try not to see it first in a florist’s display!
To my startled question she gives reassuring
answer, Oh, no, not from around here. This
came from Virginia.
Days pass, and, perhaps, the mail brings
some to me, this time from Pennsylvania or
New Jersey, and soon I can no longer ignore
the trays of tight, leafless bunches for sale on
street corners and behind plate-glass windows.
From York State,
they tell me. I grow
restive.
Jonathan,
I say, holding up a spray for
him to smell, we’ve got to go. You can’t
resist that. We’ll take a day and go for it—and
trout, too.
It is as well that arbutus comes in the trout season, for to take a day off just to pick a flower might seem a little absurd. But, coupled with trout—all is well. Trout is food. One must eat. The search for food needs no defense, and yet, the curious fact is, that if you go for trout and don’t get any, it doesn’t make so much difference as you might suppose, but if you go for arbutus and don’t get any, it makes all the difference in the world. And so Jonathan knows that in choosing his brook for that particular day, he must have regard primarily to the arbutus it will give us and only secondarily to the trout.
Every one knows the kind of brook that is,
for every one knows the kind of country
arbutus loves—hilly country, with slopes
toward the north; bits of woodland, preferably
with pine in it, to give shade, but not too
deep shade; a scrub undergrowth of laurel
and huckleberry and bay; and always, somewhere
Fortunately, there is such a brook, in just such country, on our list. There are not so many trout as in other brooks, but enough to justify our rods; and not so much arbutus as I could find elsewhere, but enough—oh, enough!
To this brook we go. We tie Kit at the bridge, Jonathan slings on a fish-basket, to do for both, and I take a box or two for the flowers. But from this moment on our interests are somewhat at variance. The fact is, Jonathan cares a little more about the trout than about the arbutus, while I care a little more about the arbutus than about the trout. His eye is keenly on the brook, mine is, yearningly, on the ragged hillsides that roll up above it.
Jonathan feels this. There isn’t any for
two fields yet—might as well stick to the
brook.
I know. I thought perhaps I’d go on
down and let you fish this part. Then I’d
meet you beyond the second fence—
Oh, no, that won’t do at all. Why, there’s
a rock just below here—down by that wild
cherry—where I took out a beauty last
year, and left another. I want you to go
down and get him.
You get him. I don’t mind.
Oh, but I mind. Here, I’ve got it all
planned: there’s a bit of brush-fishing just
below—
No brush-fishing for me, please!
That’s what I’m saying, if you’ll only
give me time. I’ll take that—there are
always two or three in there—and when
you’ve finished here you can go around me
and fish the bend, under the hemlocks, and
then the first arbutus is just beside that, and
I’ll join you there.
Well
—I assent grudgingly—only,
really, I’d be just as happy if you’d fish the
whole thing and let me go right on down—
No, you wouldn’t. Now, remember to
sneak before you get to that rock. Drop in
six feet above it and let the current do the
He trudges off to his brush-fishing
and leaves me bound in honor to extract a
trout from under that rock. I deposit my
boxes in the meadow above it, and sneak
down. The sneak of a trout fisherman is like
no other form of locomotion, and I am convinced
that the human frame was not evolved
with it in mind. But I resort to it in deference
to Jonathan’s prejudices—in deference,
also, to the fact that when I do not the trout
seldom bite. And Jonathan is so trustfully
counting on my getting that trout!
I did get him. I dropped in my line, as per directions, and let the current do the rest; had the thrill of feeling the line suddenly caught and drawn under the rock, held, then wiggled slightly; I struck, felt the weight, drew back steadily, and in a few moments there was a flopping in the grass behind me.
So that was off my mind.
I strung him on a twig of wild cherry,
gathered up my boxes, and wandered along
the faint path, back of the patch of brush
where, I knew, Jonathan was cheerfully
When you first find arbutus, there is only
one thing to do:—lie right down beside it.
Its fragrance as it grows is different from
what it is after it is picked, because with the
sweetness of the blossoms is mingled the good
smell of the earth and of the woody twigs and
of the dried grass and leaves. And there are
other rewards one gets by lying down. It is
sneak,
it is, as I
have suggested, to be sparingly indulged in.
But if we could only nibble now and then
from the other side
of Alice’s mushroom,
what a new outlook we should get on the
world that now lies about our feet! What
new aspects of its beauty would be revealed
to us: the forest grandeurs of the grass, the
architecture of its slim shafts with their pillared
aisles and pointed arches of interlocking
and upspringing curves, their ceiling traceries
of spraying tops against a far-away background
of sky!
To know arbutus, you must stoop to its level, and look across the fine, frosty fur of its stiff little leaves, and feel the nestle of its stems to the ground, the little up-fling of their tips toward the sun, and the neat radiance of its flower clusters, with their blessed fragrance and their pure, babyish color.
But after that? You want to pick it. Yes, you really want to pick it!
In this it is different from other flowers. Most of them I am well content to leave where they grow. In fact, the love of picking things—flowers or anything else—is a youthful taste: we lose it as we grow older; we become more and more willing to appreciate without acquiring, or rather, appreciation becomes to us a finer and more spiritual form of acquiring. Is it possible that, after all, the old idea of heaven as a state of enraptured contemplation is in harmony with the trend of our development?
But if there is arbutus in heaven, I shall
need to develop a good deal further not to
want to pick it. It suggests picking; it
almost invites it. There is something about
the way it nestles and hides, that makes you
want to see it better. Here is a spray of pure
white, living under a green tent of overlapping
leaves; one must raise it, and nip off just one
leaf, so that the blossoms can see out. There
is another, a pink cluster, showing faintly
through the dry, matted grass. You feel for
the stem, pull it gently, and, lo, it is many
Yet sometimes its very beauty has stayed my hand. I shall never forget one clump I found, growing out of a bank of deep green moss, partly shaded by a great hemlock. The soft pink blossoms—luxuriant leafy sprays of them—were lying out on the moss in a pagan carelessness of beauty, as though some god had willed it there for his pleasure. I sat beside it a long time, and in the end I left it without picking it.
On this particular day, Jonathan being still lost in the brush patch, I had risen from my visit with the first-discovered blossoms and wandered on, from clump to clump, wherever the glimpse of a leaf attracted me, picking the choicest here and there and dropping them into my box. After I do not know how long, I was roused by Jonathan’s whistle. I was some distance up the hillside by this time, and he was beside the brook, at the bend.
What luck?
he called.
Good luck! I’ve found lots. Come up!
He took a few steps up toward me, so that
conversation could drop from shouting to
speaking levels. How many did you get?
he asked.
How many?… Oh … why … Oh, I
got one up there where you showed me—under
the rock, you know.
Good one?
Eight inches. He’s down there by the
bars.
Good! And what about the bend?
The bend? Oh, I didn’t fish there—look
at these! Aren’t they beauties?
I
came down the hill to hold my open box up
to his face. But my casual word almost
effaced the scent of the flowers.
Ah—yes—delicious—didn’t fish
there? Why not? Did they see you?
Who? The trout? I don’t know. But I
saw this. And I just had to pick it.
Well! You’re a great fisherman! And with
that water right there beside you! Lord!
With the arbutus right here beside me!
Lord!
But the arbutus would wait.
But the trout would wait. They’re waiting
for you now, don’t you hear them? Go
and fish there!
No. That’s your pool.
Jonathan has a
way of bestowing a trout-pool on me as if it
were a bouquet. To refuse its opportunities
is almost like throwing his flowers back in his
face.
Well—of course it’s a beautiful pool—
Best on the brook,
murmured Jonathan.
But, truly, I’d enjoy it just as much to
have you fish it.
Nobody can fish it now for a while. I
thought you’d be there, of course, and I came
stamping along down, close by the bank.
They wouldn’t bite now—not for half an
hour, anyway.
Well, then, that’s just right. We’ll go on
up the hillside for half an hour, and then come
back and fish it. Set your rod up against the
bayberry here, and come along—look there!
you’re almost stepping on some!
Jonathan, gradually adjusting himself to
the turn of things, stood his rod up against
the bush with the meticulous care of the true
Where did you leave yours?
he asked, with a suspiciousness born of a
deep knowledge of my character.
Oh, down by the bars.
Standing up or lying down?
Lying down, I think. It’s all right.
It’s not all right if it’s lying down. Anything
might trample on it.
For instance, what?—birds or crickets?
For instance, people or cows.
He strode
down the hill, and I saw him stoop. As he
returned I could read disapproval in his gait.
Will you never learn how to treat a rod!
It was lying just beyond the bars. I must
have landed within two feet of it when I
jumped over.
I’m sorry. I meant to go back. I know
perfectly how to treat a rod. My trouble
comes in knowing when to apply my knowledge.…
Well, let’s go up there. Near those
big hemlocks there’s some, I remember.
And we wandered on, separating a little to
scan the ground more widely.
Once having pried his mind away from the
trout, Jonathan was as keen for arbutus as I
could wish, and soon I heard an exclamation,
Oh, come over!
he
called; you really ought to see this growing!
But there’s some I want, right here,
that’s lovely—
Never mind. Come and see this—oh,
come!
Of course I come, and of course I am glad I
came, and of course soon I am obliged to call
Jonathan to see some I have found—Jonathan,
it is truly the loveliest
And of course he comes.yet! It’s the
way it grows—with the moss and all—please
come!
We had been on the hillside a long half-hour,
much nearer an hour, when Jonathan
began to grow restive. Don’t you think you
have enough?
he suggested several times.
Finally, he spoke plainly of the trout.
Oh, yes, of course,
I said, you go down
and I’ll follow just as soon as I’ve gone along
that upper path.
Not at all. That was not what was wanted.
So I turned and we went down the hill, back
to the bend, whose seductions I had been so
puzzlingly able to resist. I am sure Jonathan
has never yet quite understood how I could
Now—sneak!
We sneaked, and I sank down just back of
the edge of the bank. Jonathan crouched
some feet behind, coaching me:—Now—draw
out a little more line—not too much—there—and
have some slack in your hand.
Now, up-stream fifteen feet—allow for the
wind—wait till that gust passes—now!
Good! First-rate! Now let her drift—there—what
did I tell you? Give him line!
Give him
line! Now, feel of him—careful! You’ll
know when to strike … there!… Oh! too
bad!
For as I struck, my line held fast.
Snagged, by gummy! Can’t you pull
clear?
Not without stirring up the whole pool.
You’ll have to do the fishing, after all.
Oh!
too
bad! That’s hard luck!
Not a bit. I like to watch you do it.
And so indeed I did. Once having realized
that I was temporarily laid by, Jonathan put
his whole mind on the pool, while I, being
honorably released from all responsibility,
Thus I watched, through the typical stages
of the sport: the delicate flip of the bait into
the current at just the right spot; its swift
descent, imperceptibly guided by the rod’s
quivering tip; its slower drift toward deep
water; its sudden vanishing, and the whir of
the reel as the line goes out; then the pause,
the critical moments of feeling for him
; at
last the strike … and then, a flopping in the
grass behind me, and Jonathan crawling
back to kill and unhook him.
Don’t get up. There’s probably another
one,
he said; and soon, by the same reptilian
methods, was back for another try. There
was another one, and yet another, and then a
little fellow, barely hooked. That’s all,
Now I’ll get you clear,
said Jonathan,
wading out into the water, and, with sleeves
rolled high, feeling deep, deep down under
the opposite bank. He had you all right—it’s
wound round a root and then jabbed
deep into it … hard luck! I wanted you to
get those fellows!
And to this day I am sure
he remembers those trout with a tinge of
regret.
I had intended leaving him to fish the rest of the brook, while I went back to that upper path to look up two or three special arbutus clumps that I knew, but seeing his depression over the snag incident, I could not suggest this. Instead I followed the stream with him, accepting his urgent offer of all the best pools, while he, taking what was left, drew out perfectly good trout from the most unhopeful-looking bits of water. And at the end, there was time to return along the upper path and visit my old friends, so both of us were satisfied.
On such days, however, there is always one
person who is not satisfied, and that is, Kit
the horse. Kit has borne with our vagaries
for many years, but she has never come to
understand them. She never fails to greet
our return, as our voices come within the
range of her pricked-up ears, by a prolonged
and reproachful whinny, which says as plainly
as is necessary, Back? Well—I should
Now and then we have thought it
would be pleasant to have a little motor-car
that could be tucked away at any roadside,
without reference to a good hitching-place,
but if we had it, I am sure we should miss that
ungracious welcoming whinny. We should
miss, too, the exasperated violence of Kit’s
pace on the first bit of the home road—a
violence expressing in the most ostentatious
manner her opinion of folks who keep a respectable
horse hitched by the roadside, far
from the delights of the dim, sweet stable
and the dusty, sneezy, munchy hay.think it was time!
I should think it was
TIME!
But leaving out this little matter of Kit’s
preference, and also the other little matter of
the trout’s preference, I feel sure that an arbutus-trouting
The
advantage of getting arbutus is, that you
bring the whole day home with you and
have it at your elbow.
The advantage of getting trout,
remarked
Jonathan dreamily, as if to himself,
is, that you bring your whole day home
with you, and have it for breakfast.
Jonathan, did you ever live without a
clock,—whole days, I mean,—days and
days—
When I was a boy—most of the time, I
suppose. But the family didn’t like it.
Of course. But did you like it?
Yes, I liked it all. I seem to remember
getting pretty hungry sometimes, but it’s all
rather good as I look back on it.
Let’s do it!
Now?
No. Society is an enlarged family, and
wouldn’t like it. But this summer, when
we camp.
How do you know we’re going to camp?
The things we know best we don’t always
know how we know.
Well, then,—
if
we camp—
When
we camp—let’s live without a
watch.
You’d need one to get there.
Take one, and let it run down.
As it turned out, my when
was truer
than Jonathan’s if.
We did camp. We
did, however, use watches to get there: when
we expressed our baggage, when we sent our
canoe, when we took the trolley car and the
train; and the watch was still going as our
laden craft nosed gently against the bank of
the river-island that was to be our home for
two weeks. It was late afternoon, and the
shadows of the steep woods on the western
bank had already turned the rocks in midstream
from silver to gray, and dimmed the
brightness of the swift water, almost to the
eastern shore.
Will there be time to get settled before
dark?
I asked, as we stepped out into the
shallow water and drew up the canoe to unload.
Shall I look at my watch to see?
asked
Jonathan, with a note of amiable derision in
his voice.
Well, I
should
rather like to know what
time it is. We won’t begin till to-morrow.
You mean, we won’t begin to stop watching.
All right. It’s just seventeen and a half
Minutes will do nicely, thank you.
Lots of time. You collect firewood while
I get the tent ready. Then it’ll need us both
to set it up.
We worked busily, happily. Ah! The joyous elation of the first night in camp! Is there anything like it? With days and days ahead, and not even one counted off the shining number! All the good things of childhood and maturity seem pressed into one mood of flawless, abounding happiness.
By dark the tent was up, the baggage stowed, the canoe secured, the fire glowing in a bed of embers, and we sat beside it, looking out past the glooms of the hemlocks across the moonlit river,—sat and ate city-cooked chicken and sandwiches and drank thermos-bottled tea.
To-morrow we’ll cook,
I said. To-night
it’s rather nice not to have to. Look at
the moonlight on that rock! How black it
makes the eddy below!
Good bass under there,
said Jonathan.
We’ll get some to-morrow.
Maybe.
Well, of course, it’s always maybe, with
bass. Well—I’m done—and it’s quarter to
ten—late! Oh! Excuse me! Maybe you’d
rather I hadn’t told you. By the way, do I
wind my watch to-night or not?
Not.
Not it is, then. Sure you wouldn’t rather
have it wound, though? We can leave it
hanging in the tent. It won’t break loose and
bite you.
Yes, it would. There would be a something—a
taint—
Oh,
all right!
We slept with the murmur of the river
running through our dreams,—a murmur of
many voices: deep voices, high voices, grumbling
voices as the stones go grinding and rolling
along the ever-changing bottom,—and
only half roused when the dawn chorus of
the birds filled the air. That dawn chorus was
something we should have been loath to miss.
Through the first gray of the morning there
comes a stir in the woods, an expectant
tremor; a bird peeps softly and is still; then
softly conferring together.
As the light grows warmer, comes a
clearer note from some leader, then a full,
complete song; another, and the woods are
awake, flinging out their wonderful song-greeting
to the morning. There is in it a prodigality
of swift-changing beauty like ocean
surf: a continuous and intricate interweaving
of rhythms, pulses and ebbings of clear tone,
beautiful phrases rising antiphonal, showerings
of bright notes, moments of subsidence,
almost of pause. As the light grows and
sharpens, the music reaches a crescendo of
exuberance, and at last dies down as real day
comes, bringing with it the day’s work. On
our island the leader of the chorus was almost
always a song sparrow, though once or
twice a wood thrush came over from the shore
woods and filled the hemlock shadows with
the limpid splendors of his song.
Hearing the chorus through our dreams,
we slept again, and when I really waked the
sun was high, flecking the eastern V of our
tent with dazzling patches. I heard Jonathan
moving about outside, and the crackling of
a new-made fire. I went to the front of the
Bacon and eggs, is it?
called Jonathan,
or shall I run down and try for a bass?
Don’t!
I called. I knew that if he once
got out after bass he was lost to me for the
day. And now we had cut loose from even
the mild tyranny of his watch. As I thought
of this I went over to the many-forked tree,
whose close-trimmed branches served our tent
as hat-rack, clothes-rack, everything-that-can-hang-or-perch-rack,
and opened Jonathan’s
watch.
Well, what time is it?
Jonathan was
peering in between the tent-flaps.
Twenty-two minutes before five.
A.M., I judge. Sorry you didn’t let me
wind it?
Not a bit. I was just curious to see when
it stopped, that was all.
Well, now you know. Hereafter the official
time for the camp is
A.M.
or P.M.,
according to taste. Come along. The bacon’s
done, and I’m blest if I want to drop in the
eggs.
Dropping an egg will never, I fear, be one
of Jonathan’s most finished performances.
He watched me do it with generous admiration.
If you could just get over being
scared of them,
I suggested, as the last one
plumped into the pan and set up its gentle
sizzle.
No use. I
am
scared of the things. I tap
and tap, and nothing happens, and then I
get mad and tap hard, and they’re all over
the place.
By the time breakfast was over, even the coolness under the hemlocks was beginning to grow warm and aromatic. The birds in the shore woods were quieter, though out at the sunny end of our island, where the hemlocks gave place to low scrub growth, the song sparrow sang gayly now and then.
Now,
said Jonathan, what about fishing?
Well—let’s fish!
One up stream and one down, or keep together?
Together,
I decided. If we go two
ways there’s no telling when I’ll ever see
you again.
Yes, there is: when I’m hungry.
No; some time after you’ve noticed
you’re hungry.
Now, if we had watches it would be so
much simpler: we could meet here at, say,
one o’clock.
Simple, indeed! When did you ever look
at a watch when you were fishing, unless I
made you? No, my way is simple, but we
stay together.
Of course, in river fishing, together
means
simply not absolutely out of sight of each
other. Jonathan may be up to his arm-pits in
mid-current, or marooned on a rock above a
swirling eddy, while I am in a similar situation
beyond calling distance, but so long as a
bend in the river does not cut us off, we are
together,
and very companionable togetherness
it is, too. When I see Jonathan wildly
waving to attract my attention, I know he
has either just caught a big bass or else just
We banked our fire, stowed everything in the tent that a thunderstorm would hurt, and splashed out into the river. There it lay in all its bright, swift beauty, and we stood a moment, looking, feeling the push of the water about our knees and the warmth of the sun on our shoulders.
It makes a difference, sleeping out in it
all,
I said. You feel as if it belonged to
you so much more. I quite own the river this
morning, don’t you?
Quite. But not the bass in it. Bet you
don’t catch one!
Bet I beat you!
Bass, mind you. Sunfish don’t count.
You’re always catching sunfish.
They count in the pan. But I’ll beat you
on bass. I know some places—
Who doesn’t? All right, go ahead!
We were off; Jonathan, as usual, wading
kick up a row generally,
so that
you’d swear it was nothing smaller than a
wild bull.
So we fished that day. When I caught a bass, which was seldom, I whooped and waved it at Jonathan, and when I caught a shiner, which was rather often, I waved it too, just to keep his mind occupied. Hours passed, and we met at a bend in the river where the deep water glides close to shore.
Hungry?
I asked.
Now you speak of it, yes.
Shall we go back?
How can I tell? Now, if we only had that
watch we’d know whether we ought to be
hungry or not.
What does that matter, if we
are hungry?
Besides, if you’d had a watch, you’d have
had to carry it in your teeth. You know perfectly
well you wouldn’t have brought it,
anyway.
Well—then, at least when we got back,
we should have known whether we ought to
have been hungry or not. Now we shall never
know.
Never! Oh! Look there, Jonathan!
We’re going to catch it!
A sense of growing
shadow in the air had made me look up, and
there, back of the steep-rising woods, hung a
blue-black cloud, with ragged edges crawling
out into the brightness of the sky.
Sure enough! The bass’ll bite now, if it
really comes. Wait till the first drops, and
see what you see.
We had not long to wait. There came that
sudden expectancy in the air and the trees,
Now! Wade right out there, to the edge
of that ledge—don’t slip over, it’s deep.
I’ll go down a little way.
I waded out carefully, and cast, in the smooth, dark water already beginning to be rain-pocked. It was surprisingly shivery, that storm wind! I glanced toward shore to look for shelter—I remembered an overhanging ledge of rock—then my line went taut! I forgot about shelter, forgot about being chilly; I knew it was a good bass.
I got him in—too big to go through the
hole in my creel—cast for another—and
another—and yet another. The rain began
to fall in sheets, and the wind nearly blew me
over, but who could run away from such
fishing? The surface of the river, deep blue-gray,
seemed rising everywhere in little jets
to meet the rain. Rapids, eddies, still waters,
weedy edges, all looked alike; there were
neither waves nor swirls nor glassy slicks,
but all were roughly furry under the multitudinous
Then, as suddenly as they had begun, they stopped biting. I waited long minutes; nothing happened, and all at once I realized that I was very wet and very cold. Wading ashore, I saw Jonathan shivering along up the narrow beach toward me, his shoulders drawn in to half their natural spread, neck tucked in between his collar-bones, knees slightly bent.
You can’t be cold?
I questioned as soon
as he was near enough to hear me through
the slash of the rain and wind.
No, of course not; are you?
We didn’t discuss it, but ran up the bank to the rock-ledge and crouched under it, our teeth literally chattering.
Did you ever see such fishing?
I managed
to stammer.
Great! But oh,
why
didn’t I bring the whiskey bottle?
Let’s run for camp! We can’t be wetter.
We crawled out into the rain again, and first sprinted and then dog-trotted along the river edge. No bird notes now in the woods beside us, no whirring of wings; only the rain sounds: soft swishings and drippings and gusty showerings, very different from the flat, flicking sounds when rain first starts in dry woods.
Camp looked a little cheerless, but a blazing fire, started with dry stuff we had stowed inside the tent, changed things, and dry clothes changed them still more, and we sat within the tent flaps and ate ginger-snaps in great contentment of spirit while we waited for the rain to stop.
It did stop, and very soon the fish were sizzling in the pan.
Of course, if we had a watch, now—
suggested Jonathan, as he carefully tucked
under the pan little sticks of just the right
length.
What should we know more than we do
now—that we’re hungry?
I asked.
Well, for one thing, we’d know what
time it is,
replied Jonathan tranquilly.
And for another we’d know whether it’s
dinner or supper I’m cooking,
I supplemented.
But does it matter? You won’t get
anything different, no matter which it is—just
fish is what you’ll get. And pretty soon
the sun will be out, and you can set up a
stick and watch the shadow and make a sundial
for yourself.
Oh, I don’t really care which it is.
Do you suppose I don’t know that! And
meanwhile, you might cut the bread and
make some toast,—there are some good
embers on your side under the pan,—and
I’ll get the butter, and there we’ll be.
By the time the toast was made and the fish curling brownly away from the pan, the sun had indeed come out, at first pale and watery, then clear, and still high enough in the heavens to set the soaked earth steaming fragrantly with its heat. Odors of hemlock and wet earth mingled with odors of toast and fried fish.
Um-m! Smell it all!
I said. What a lot
we should miss if we didn’t eat in the kitchen!
Or cook in the dining-room—which?
And hear that song sparrow! Doesn’t it
sound as if the rain had washed his song a
little cleaner and clearer?
There followed the wonderful afterlight that a short, drenching rain leaves behind it—a hush of light, deeply pervasive and friendly. The sunshine slanted across the gleaming wet rocks in the river, lit up the rain-darkened trunks of the hemlocks, glinted on the low-hanging leaves, and flashed through the dripping edges of sagging fern fronds. As twilight came on, we canoed across to the side of the river where the road lay—the other side was steep and pathless woods—and walked down to the nearest farmhouse to buy eggs for the morning. Back again by the light of a low-hung moon, and across the dim water to our own island and the embers of our fire.
Oh, Jonathan! We never asked them
what time it was!
I said. I meant to—for
your sake—I thought you’d sleep better if
you knew.
Too bad! Probably I should have. I
thought of it, of course, but was afraid that
if I asked it would spoil your day.
It would take something pretty bad to
spoil a day like this one,
I said.
Two days later the weather turned still and
warm, the bass refused to bite, and even the
sunfish lay, shy or wary or indifferent, in
their shallow, sunny pools, so we resolved to
walk down the river to the post-office, four
miles away, for possible mail. As we sat on
the steps of the little store, looking it over,—Here’s
news,
said Jonathan; Jack and
Molly say they’ll run up if we want them,
day after to-morrow—up on the morning
train, and back on the evening.
Good! Tell them to come along.
No—it’s to-morrow—letter’s been here
since yesterday. I’ll telegraph.
As we tramped home we planned the day.
We’ll meet them and all walk up together,
said Jonathan.
We’d better catch some bass and leave
them all hooked in a pool, ready for them to
pull out,
I added; otherwise they may not
catch any. And maybe you’d better meet
them and I’ll have dinner ready when you
get back.
Nonsense! You come, and we’ll all get
dinner when we get back. That’s what
they’re coming for—to see the whole thing.
But if it’s late—they’ve got to get back
for that down train.
Well—time enough.
Oh, Jonathan! What about catching that
train?
They’ll have watches—watches that
go.
But what about our meeting them? The
train arrives at
Or rather, what does 8.45 look like? It
takes an hour and a half to get there, counting
crossing the river.
Yes—dear me! Well, Jonathan, we’ll
just have to get up early and go, and then
wait.
Or else take our watch to the farmhouse
and set it.
Jonathan, I will not! I’d rather start at
daylight.
Which was very nearly what we did. The
morning opened with a sun obscured, and I
felt sure it was stealing a march on us and
I think,
said Jonathan, it may be as
late as seven o’clock, but perhaps it’s only
six.
When we reached the station, the official
clock registered 8.30. We strolled over to the
store-and-post-office and got more letters—one
from Molly and Jack saying thank you
they’d come. They don’t entirely understand
our mail system up here,
said Jonathan.
We got some ginger-cookies and some
milk and had a second breakfast, and finally
wandered back to the station to wait for the
train. It came, bearing the expected two,
and much friendliness. Get our letter?
There, Jack! He said you wouldn’t, but I
said you would. I made him send it … four
miles to walk? What fun!
It was fun, indeed, and all went well until
Well,
maybe we’d better be starting back for that
train
—drew out his watch. He opened it,
muttered something, put it to his ear, then
began to wind it rapidly. He wound and
wound. We all laughed.
Looks as if you hadn’t remembered to
wind it last night,
said Jonathan, glancing
at me.
I haven’t done that in months, hang it!
Give me the time, will you, Jonathan?
said
Jack.
Sorry!
Jonathan was smiling genially.
Mine’s run down too. It stopped at
twenty-two minutes before
five—
A. M., I
think.
What luck! And Molly didn’t bring
hers.
You told me not to,
Molly flicked in.
So here we are,
said Jonathan, entirely
without the time of day.
But plenty of real time all round us,
I
said. Let’s use it, and start.
I avoided
Jonathan’s eye.
We reached the station with an hour and
ten minutes to spare—bought more ginger-cookies
Well, I don’t see but we got on just as
well without a watch, didn’t we, Jack? Why
do we need watches, anyway? Do
she turned to us. you see?Jack does everything by
his watch—eats and breathes and sleeps by
it—
Jack returned, watch in hand—he had
been getting railroad time from the telegraph
operator. Want to set yours while you
think of it?
he asked Jonathan.
Sorry—thank you—didn’t bring it,
said Jonathan.
By George, man, what’ll you do?
Real
consternation sounded in Jack’s tones.
Oh, we’ll get along somehow,
said Jonathan.
You see, we don’t have many engagements,
except with the bass, and they
never meet theirs, anyhow.
When the train had gone, I said, Jonathan,
why didn’t you tell them it was my
whim?
Oh, I just didn’t,
said Jonathan.
As Jonathan had predicted, we did get along somehow—got along rather well, on the whole. There are, of course, some drawbacks to an unwatched life. You never want to start the next meal till you are hungry, and after that it takes one or two or three hours, as the case may be, to go back to camp and get the meal ready, and by that time you are almost hungrier than you like being. But except for this, and the little matter of meeting trains, it is rather pleasant to break away from the habit of watching the watch, and it was with real regret that, on the last night of our camp, we took our watch to the farmhouse to set it.
Run down, did it? Guess you forgot to
wind it. Well—we do forget things sometimes,
all of us do,
the farmer’s wife said
comfortingly as she went to look at the clock.
Twenty minutes to seven, our clock says.
It’s apt to be fast, so I guess you won’t miss
any trains. Father he says he’d rather have
a clock fast than slow any day, but it don’t
often get more than ten minutes wrong either
way.
And to us, after our two weeks of camp,
Jonathan,
I said, as we walked back
along the road, I hate to go back to clock
time. I like real time better.
You couldn’t do so many things in a
day,
said Jonathan.
No—maybe not.
But maybe that wouldn’t matter.
Maybe it wouldn’t,
I said.
Of course you don’t know what her name
is,
I said, as we stood examining the sleek
little black mare Jonathan had just brought
up from the city.
No. Forgot to ask. Don’t believe they’d
have known anyway—one of a hundred or
so.
Well, we’ll name her again. Dear me—she’s
rather plain! Probably she’s useful.
Hope so,
said Jonathan. Then, stepping
back a little, in a slightly grieved tone, But
I don’t call her plain. Wait till she’s groomed
up—
It’s that droop of her neck—sort of patient—and
the way she drops one of her
hips—if they are hips.
But we want a horse to be patient.
Yes. I don’t know that I care about having
her
look so terribly much so as this. I
think I’ll call her Griselda.
Now, why Griselda?
Why, don’t you know? She was that
patient creature, with the horrid husband
who had to keep trying to see just how patient
she was. It’s a hateful story—enough
to turn any one who brooded on it into a militant
suffragette.
But you can’t call a horse Griselda—not
for common stable use, you know.
Call her
Griz
for short. It does very
well.
Jonathan jeered a little, but in the family
the name held. Our man Hiram said nothing,
but I think in private he called her
Fan
or Beauty
or Lady,
or some
such regulation stable name.
Called by any name, she pleased us, and
she was patient. She trotted peacefully up
hill and down, she did her best at ploughing
and haymaking and all the odd jobs that the
farm supplied. She stood when we left her,
with that same demure, almost overdone
droop of the neck that I had first noticed.
When I met Jonathan at the station, she
stood with her nose against a snorting train,
looking as if nothing could rouse her.
Good little horse you got there,
remarked
the station agent. Where’d you
find her?
Oh, I picked her out of a bunch down in
the city,
said Jonathan casually. I didn’t
think I knew much about horses, but I guess
I was in luck this time.
Guess you know more about horses than
you’re sayin’.
And Jonathan, thus pressed,
admitted with suitable reluctance that he
had now and then been able to detect a good
horse by his own observation.
On the way home he openly congratulated
himself on his find. I really wasn’t
sure I knew how to pick out a horse,
he remarked,
in a glow of retrospective modesty,
but I certainly got a treasure this time.
Griz had been with us about two weeks, and all went well. Then another horse was needed for farm work, and one was sent up—one Kit by name—a big, pleasant, rather stupid brown mare.
They do say two mares don’t git on so
well together as a mare ’n a horse,
remarked
Hiram.
But these are both such quiet creatures,
For two or three days after the new arrival
nothing happened, so far as we knew,
except that Griz always laid her ears back,
and looked queer about her under lip, whenever
Kit was led in or out of the stall next
her, while Kit always huddled up close to
her manger whenever Griz was led past her
heels. Once or twice Griz slipped her halter
in the stall, and Hiram said there was a place
on Kit that looked as if she had been kicked,
but when we scrutinized Griz, neck a-droop
and eyes a-blink, we found it hard to think
ill of her. Besides, Jonathan was now fairly
committed to the opinion that he had got
a treasure this time.
Kit may have hurt
herself lying down,
he suggested, and again
Hiram made no answer.
Then one night, sometime during the very
small, very dark, and very sleepy hours, we
were awakened by awful sounds. What is
it? What
I gasped.is it?
Crash! Bang! Boom! The trampling of
hoofs!—heavy, hollow pounding!—the
Jonathan was up in an instant muttering,
Where are my rubber boots?—and my
coat?
Jonathan!
what
a combination!
But he was gone, and I heard the snap of the lantern and the slam of the back door almost before the rocking-chair in the sitting-room that he had hit—and talked to—had stopped rocking. Then I heard him calling outside Hiram’s window and then he ran past our window, out to the barn. I wished he had waited for Hiram, but I had an undercurrent of pleasure in hearing him run. Jonathan’s theory is that there is never any hurry, and now and then I like to have this notion jolted up a little.
Meanwhile the awful sounds had ceased.
There was the rumble of the stable door, a
pause, and Jonathan’s voice in conversational
tones. Next came the flashing of Hiram’s
lantern, and the tromp, tromp, tromp,
in much quicker tempo than usual, of Hiram’s
heavy boots. Hiram’s theory was a
I guess Griz got all she needed—didn’t
know either of ’em had so much spunk in ’em.
What happened?
Don’t know, exactly, but when I opened
that door, there was Griz, just inside, no halter
on, head down, meek as Moses, as far
away from Kit’s heels as she could get—she’s
got the mark of them on her leg and her flank.
Is she hurt?—or Kit?
No, not so far as we can see, not to
amount to anything—except maybe Griz’s
feelings.
And what about Mrs. Hiram’s feelings?
Jonathan laughed aloud. I was inside
with Kit, and she called out to know if she
could help.
And what did you say?
I said,
Not on your life.
So that was why she came back. Did you
really say,‘Not on your life,’ or did you only
imply it in your tone, while you actually said,
‘No, thank you very much’?
I really said it. At least, I don’t remember
conversations the way you do, but I didn’t
feel a bit like thanking anybody, and I
don’t believe I did.
Well, I wish I’d heard you. One misses a
good deal—
You can see the stable to-morrow. That’ll
keep. They must have had a time of it!
The walls are marked and splintered as high
as I can reach. And I don’t believe Kit’ll
cringe when Griz passes her any more.
Of course you remember Hiram
said two
mares didn’t usually get on very well, and
even when they’re chosen by a good judge of
horses—
After that the two did get along peaceably enough, and Jonathan assured me that all horses had these little affairs. One day we drove over to the main street of the village on an errand.
Will she stand?
I questioned.
Better hitch her, perhaps,
said Jonathan,
getting out the rope. He snapped it
into her bit-ring, then threw the other end
around a post and started to make a half-hitch.
But as he drew up the rope it was suddenly
jerked out of his hand. He looked up
and saw Griselda’s patient head waving high
above him on the end of an erect and rebellious
neck, the hitch-rope waggling in loops
and spirals in the air, and the whole outfit
backing away from him with speed and decision.
He was so astonished that he did
nothing, and in a moment Griz had stopped
backing and stood still, her head sagging
gently, the rope dangling.
Well—I’ll—be—
I didn’t try to
remember just what Jonathan said he would
be, because it doesn’t really matter. We
both stared at Griz as if we had never seen her
before. Griz looked at nothing in particular,
she blinked long lashes over drowsy, dark
eyes, and sagged one hip.
She’s trying to make believe she didn’t
do it—but she did,
I said.
Something must have startled her,
said
What?
I said.
You never can tell, with a horse.
No, apparently not,
I said, smiling to
myself; and I added hastily, as I saw Jonathan
go forward to her head,
For I had detected on Jonathan’s
face a look that I very well knew. It was the
same expression he had worn that Sunday he
led the calf to pasture. He made no answer,
but stood examining the hitch-rope.Don’t try it
again, please! I’ll stay by her while you go
in. Please!
No use,
he said, quietly releasing it and
tossing its coil into the carriage, It’s too
rotten. If it snapped, she’d be ruined.
I breathed freer. I privately hoped that all the hitch-ropes at the farm were rotten.
Griz stands perfectly well without hitching,
I said as we drove home, Why do you
force an issue?
I didn’t. She did. She’s beaten me. If
I don’t hitch her now, she’ll know she’s master.
Oh, dear!
I sighed. Let her
be master!
Where’s the harm? It’s just your vanity.
Perhaps so,
said Jonathan.
When he agrees with me like that I know it’s hopeless.
The next night he wheeled in at the big gate bearing about his shoulders a coil of heavy rope.
It looks like a ship’s cable,
I said.
Yes,
he responded, leaning his bicycle
against his side, and swinging the coil over
his head. I want it for mooring purposes.
Think it’ll moor Griz?
Jonathan!
I exclaimed, you won’t!
Watch me,
said Jonathan, and he proceeded
to explain to me the working of the
tackle.
One end had a ring in it, and as nearly as I remember, the plan was to put the rope around her body, under what would be her arm-pits if she had arm-pits,—horses’ joints are never called what one would expect, of course,—run the end through the ring, then forward between her legs and through the bit-ring.
Then, when she sets back, it cuts her in
two,
he concluded cheerfully.
But you don’t
I protested.want her in two,
She won’t set back,
he responded; at
least, not more than once. To-morrow’s Sunday;
I’ll have to hitch her at church.
I hoped it would rain, so we needn’t go, but we were having a drought and the morning dawned cloudless. We reached the church just on the last stroke of the bell. The women were all within; the men and boys lounging in the vestibule were turning reluctant feet to follow them.
You go right in,
said Jonathan, I’ll be
in soon.
I turned to protest, but he was already driving round to the side, and a hush had fallen over the congregation within that made it embarrassing to call. Besides, one of the deacons stood holding open the door for me.
I slipped into a pew near the back, with
the apologetic feeling one often has in an old
country church—a feeling that one is making
the ghosts move along a little. They did
move, of course,—probably ghosts are always
The moralists tell us that what we get out of any experience depends upon what we bring to it. What I brought to it that morning was a mind agog, attuned to receive these expected outside sounds. To all such sounds the service within was merely a background—a background which didn’t know its place, since it kept pushing itself more or less importunately into the foreground. I sat there, of course, with perfect propriety of demeanor, but my reactions were something like this:—
Hymn 912
… seven stanzas! horrors! oh!
omit the 3d, 5th, and
6th—well, I should
hope so!… I can’t hear a thing while this
is going on!… He hasn’t come in yet!
Scripture reading for
to-day—why can’t he
give us the passage and let us read it for ourselves?—well,
his voice is rather high and
uneven, I think I could make out Jonathan’s
through the loopholes in it.… There! What
was that, I wonder! Sounded like shouting,—oh,
why can’t he talk softly! Let us unite
in prayer. Ah! now we’ll have a long, quiet
time, anyway!… if only he wouldn’t pray
quite so loud! Why pray aloud at all, anyway?
I like the Quaker way best: a good long
strip of silence, where your thoughts can
wash around in any fashion that—There!
No—yes—no—it’s just people going by
on the road.… Maybe he’s in the back of
the church now, waiting for the close of the
prayer. Seems as if I had to look.… Well,
he isn’t.… For
thy name’s sake, amen.
And then the collection, with an organ voluntary the while—now why an organ voluntary? Why not leave people to their thoughts some of the time?
And at last, the sermon:—The text to
which I wish to call your attention this morning—my
attention, forsooth! My attention
was otherwise occupied. Ah! A puff of
In a city church probably I should have
thrown propriety to the winds and had the
gist of the story out of him at once, but in a
country church there are always such listening
spaces,—the very pew-backs and cushions
seem attentive, the hymnals creak in their
racks, and the little stools cry out nervously
when one barely touches them. It was too
much for me. I was coerced into an outer
semblance of decorum. However, I snatched
a hasty glance at Jonathan’s face. It was
quite red and hot-looking, but calm, very
calm, and I judged it to be the calm, not of
defeat nor yet of settled militancy, but of
triumph. I even thought I detected the
flicker of a grin,—the mere atmospheric
suggestion of a grin,—as if he felt the urgent
if furtive appeal in my glance. At any rate,
Jonathan was all right, that was clear. And
as to Griz—whether she was still one mare or
two half-mares—it didn’t so much matter.
As we stood up for the last hymn, I whispered,
How did it go?
All right. She’s hitched,
was the answer.
After church there was the usual stir of sociability, and when I emerged into the glare of the church steps, I saw Jonathan driving slowly around from the rear. Griz walked meekly, her head sagged, her eyes blinked.
Good quiet little horse you’ve got there,
said a deacon over my shoulder; don’t get
restless standing, the way some horses do.
Yes, she’s very quiet,
I said.
I got in, and at last, as we drove off, the flood-gates of my impatience broke:—
Well?
I said,—well?
Well—
said Jonathan.
Well?
Tell me about it!
I’ve told you. I hitched her.
How did you hitch her?
Just the way I said I would.
Didn’t she mind?
Don’t know.
Did she make a fuss?
Not much.
What do you mean by much?
Oh, she set back a little.
Do any harm?
No.
Hurt herself?
Guess not.
Jonathan, you drive me distracted—you
have no more sense for a story—
But there was nothing in particular—
Now, Jonathan, if there was nothing in
particular,
why
didn’t you get into church
till the sermon was begun, and why were you
so red and hot?
Jonathan smiled indulgently. Why, of
course, she didn’t care about being hitched.
I thought you knew that. But it was perfectly
easy.
And that was about all I could extract by
the most artful questions. I took my revenge
by telling Jonathan the deacon’s compliment
to Griz. He said she didn’t get restless
standing, the way so many horses did. I
thought of mentioning that you were a rather
good judge of horses, in an amateur way, but
then I thought it might seem like boasting,
so I didn’t.
After that, of course, I didn’t really deserve to hear the whole story, but the next night I happened to be in the hammock while Jonathan was talking to a neighbor at the front gate, and he was relating the incident with detail enough to have satisfied the most hungry gossip. Only thus did I learn that Bill Howard, who had wound the rope twice round the post to give himself a little leeway, was drawn right up to the post when she set back; that they had been afraid the headstall would tear off; that they had been rather nervous about the post, and other such little points, which I had not been clever enough to elicit by my questions.
Now, why? Probably a man likes to tell a story when he likes to tell it. I find myself wondering how much Odysseus told Penelope about his adventures when she got him to herself for a good talk. Is it significant that his really long story was told to the King of the Phæacians?
As to Griz:—it would perhaps not be
worth while to recount her subsequent history.
It was a curious one, consisting of
long stretches of continuous and ostentatious
set back
when
Jonathan was the one to hitch her, but this
was a concession made to him personally, and
had no effect on her general habits. We
talked of changing her name, but could never
manage it. We thought of selling her, but
she was too valuable—most of the time. And
when we finally parted from her our relief
was deeply tinged with regret.
I have sometimes wondered whether such flare-ups were not the natural and necessary means of recuperation from such depths of meekness. I have even wondered whether the original Griselda may not have—but this is not a dissertation on early Italian poetry, nor on the nature of women.
We were glad that the plan of the rowboat cruise dawned upon us almost a year before it came to pass. We were the gainers by just that rich length of expectancy.
For the joy that one gets from any cherished plan is always threefold: there is the joy of looking forward, the joy of the very doing, and the joy of remembering. They are all good, but only the last is eternal. The doing is hedged between limits, and its pleasures are often confused, overlaid with alien or accidental impressions. The joy of the forward look is pure and keen, but its bounds, too, are set. It begins at the moment when the first ray of the plan-idea dawns on one’s mind, and it ends with the day of fulfillment. If the dawn begins long before the day, so much the better.
It was early fall, and we had come in from
a day by the river, where we had tramped
If we only had a boat!
I said.
Boat! What do you want a boat for?
You wouldn’t want to sit in a boat all day.
Who said I would? But I want to get
into it, and float off, and get out again somewhere
else. That’s my idea of a boat.
Oh, of course, a boat would be handy—
Handy! You talk as if it was a buttonhook!
Well?
Well—of course it
is handy—as you
call it—but a boat means such a lot of
things—adventure, romance. When you’re
in a boat—a little boat—anything might
happen.
Yes,
said Jonathan, drawing the logs
together, that’s just the way your family
feels about it when you’re young.
Then we both laughed, and there was a reminiscent pause.
What became of your boat?
I asked
finally.
Sold. You kept yours.
Yes. It’s in the cellar, there at Nantucket.
I could have it sent on.
Cost as much as to buy a new one.
A new one wouldn’t be as good.
I
bristled a little. Any one who has owned a
boat is very sensitive about its virtues.
How big?
How should I know? A little boat—maybe
twelve feet.
Two oars?
Four.
Round bottom?
Yes. She’d ride anything.
Well
—Jonathan suddenly
expanded—here’s
an idea now! How would you like
to have it sent on to the mainland, and then
row it the rest of the way—along the Rhode
Island and Connecticut shores?
I sat straight up. Jonathan! Let’s do it
now!
Jonathan chuckled. My! What a hurry
she’s in!
Well, let’s!
We couldn’t. The boat will have to be
overhauled first.
Oh, dear! I suppose so.
We could do it next spring, and go up the
trout streams.
Think of that!
I murmured.
Or in September and get the shore hunting—the
salt marshes.
Oh, which?—which?
Already I was
following our course along curving beaches
and amongst the yellow marshlands. But
Jonathan’s mind was working on more practical
details.
Twelve feet, you said?
About that.
Pretty close stowing for our dunnage—still—let’s
see—two guns—
Or the rods, if we went in the spring.
And rubber coats, and blankets—
Jonathan! Should we camp?
Might have to.
Let’s, anyway.
How does that coast-line run? Where’s
a map?
All we had were some railroad maps and an
old school geography—just enough to tantalize
us—but we fell upon them eagerly.
It is curious what a change comes over these
dumb bits of colored paper at such times.
We decided on the September plan, and for the next eleven months our casual talk was starred with inapropos remarks like these:—
Jonathan, I know we shall forget a can-opener.
Better write it down while you think of it.
And have you put down a hatchet?
The camera! It isn’t on the list!
Hang it! Those charts haven’t come yet!
What can we take to look respectable in
when we go ashore?
Meanwhile the little boat was stirred out
of its long sleep in the cellar, overhauled, and
painted, and shipped to a port up in Narragansett
Bay. And on the last day of August
we found ourselves walking down through
the little town. Following the instructions
of wondering small boys, we came to a gate
in a board fence, opened it and let ourselves
into a typical New England seaport scene—a
tiny garden, ablaze with sunshine and gorgeous
with the yellows and lavenders of fall
There it is!
I said, with a surge of reminiscent
affection.
That little thing!
said Jonathan. I
thought you said twelve feet.
Well, isn’t it? Anyway,
I said
about.
And it’s big enough.
He was spanning its length with his hands.
Eleven foot six. Oh, I suppose she’ll do.
My boat was fourteen.
Now, don’t be so patronizing about your
boat. Wait till you see how mine behaves.
He dropped the discussion and got her launched. Is there anything prettier than a pretty boat floating beside a dock!
The next morning when we came down we
found her half full of water. She’ll be all
right now she’s soaked up,
said Jonathan,
and we baled her dry and went off to get our
stuff.
I delayed to buy provisions, and when I
See here! When this stuff’s all stowed,
where are we going to sit? That’s what’s
worrying me.
Why, won’t it go in?
Go! It wouldn’t go in two boats.
I came down the plank. Well, let’s eliminate.
We eliminated. We took out extra shoes
and coats and town clothes,
we cut down
as far as we dared, and expressed a big
bundle home. The rest we got into two
sailor’s dunnage bags, one waterproof, the
other nearly so, and one big water-tight
metal box. Then there were the guns, and
the provisions, and the charts in a long tin
tube, and there was a lantern—a clumsy
thing, which we lashed to a seat. It was always
in the way and proved of very little use,
but we thought we ought to take it.
While we worked, some loungers gathered
on the wharf above and watched us with that
tolerant curiosity that loungers know so well
how to assume. As we got in and took up our
Now, if you
only had a little motor there in the stern,
you’d be all right.
Don’t want one,
said Jonathan.
What? Why not?
Go too fast.
Eh? What say?
Go—too—fast.
He heard you,
I said, but he can’t believe
you really said it.
The oars fell into unison, there was the dip
of their blades, the grating chunk of the
rowlocks—dip-ke-chunk, dip-ke-chunk.
As we fell into our stroke the little boat began to
respond, the water swished at her bows and
gurgled under her stern. The wharf fell away
behind us, the houses back of it came into
sight, then the wooded hills behind. The
whole town began to draw together, with its
church steeples as its centers.
She does go!
remarked Jonathan.
I told you! Look at us now! Look at that
buoy!
Dip-ke-chunk, dip-ke-chunk—the
red buoy swept by us and dropped into the blue background
of dancing waves.
Are we really off? Is it really happening?
I said joyously.
Do you like it?
said Jonathan over his
shoulder.
No. Do you?
To such unwisdom of
speech do people come when they are happy.
But there were circumstances to steady us.
What I’m wondering,
said Jonathan,
is, what’s going to happen next—when we
get out there.
He tilted his head toward the
open bay, broad and windy, ahead of us.
There’s some pretty interesting water out
there beyond this lee.
Oh, she’ll take it all right. It’s no worse
than Nantucket water. It couldn’t be.
You’ll see.
We did see. In half an hour we were in the middle of upper Narragansett Bay, trying to make a diagonal across it to the southwest, while the long rollers came in steadily from the south, broken by a nasty chop of peaked, whitecapped waves. We rowed carefully, our heads over our right shoulders, watching each wave as it came on, with broken comments:—
That’s a good one coming—bring her
up now—there—all right, now let her off
again—hold her so—there’s another
coming—see?—that big one, the fifth, the
fourth, away—row, now—we beat it—there
it goes off astern—see it break!
Here’s another—look out for your oar—we
can’t afford to miss a stroke—oh, me! Did
that wet you too? My right shoulder is
soaked—my left isn’t—now it is!
But half an hour of this sort of thing brought about two results—confidence in the little boat, which rode well in spite of her load, and confidence in each other’s rowing. We found that the four oars worked together, our early training told, and we instinctively did the same things in each of the varied emergencies created by wind and wave. There was no need for orders, and our talk died down to an exclamation now and then at some especially big wave, or a laugh as one of us got a drenching from the white top of a foaming crest.
It was not an easy day, that first one.…
It seems, sometimes, as if there were little
imps of malignity that hovered over one
For leak it did. The soaking over night
had done no good. It had, indeed, been
thoroughly overhauled
and pronounced
seaworthy, but there was the water, too
much to be accounted for as spray, swashing
over the bottom boards, growing undeniably
and most uncomfortably deeper. The imps
made no offer to bale for us, so we had to do
it ourselves, losing the much-needed power
at the oars, while one of us set to work at the
dip-and-toss, dip-and-toss motion so familiar
to any one who has kept company with a
small boat.
I wish my mother could see me now—
hummed Jonathan.
I wouldn’t wish that.
Why not?
What would they all think of us if they
could see us this minute?
Just what they have thought for a long
time.
I laughed. How true that is, teacher!
I said.
Finding us still cheerful, the imps tried again.
Jonathan—do you know—I do believe—my
rowlock socket is working loose.
He cast a quick look over his shoulder
without breaking stroke. Then he said a few
words, explicit and powerful, about the man
who had overhauled
the boat. He ought
to be put out in it, in a sea like this, and left
to row himself home.
Yes, of course, but instead, here we are.
It won’t last half an hour longer.
It did not last ten minutes. There it hung, one screw pulled loose, the other barely holding.
Take my knife—you can get it out of
my hip pocket—and try to set up that screw
with the big blade.
I did so, and pulled a few strokes. Then—It’s
come out again. It’s no use.
We make blamed poor headway with one
pair of oars,
said Jonathan.
He meditated.
Where are the screw-eyes?
he said after
a moment.
Oh, good for you! They’re in the metal
box. I’ll get them.
I drew in my useless oars, turned about and cautiously wriggled up into the bow seat.
Look out for yourself! Don’t bullfrog
out over the bow. I can’t hold her any
steadier than this.
Oh, I’m all right.
With one hand I gripped the gunwale, with the other I felt down into the box and finally fished out the required treasures. I worked my way back into my own seat and tried a screw-eye in the empty, rusted-out hole.
“Does it
bite?
I don’t know about biting, but it’s going
in beautifully—now it goes hard.
Perhaps I can give it a turn.
Perhaps you can’t! Don’t you stop rowing.
If this boat wasn’t held steady, she’d—I
don’t know what she wouldn’t do.
If you stick something through the eye
you can turn it.
Yes. I’ll find
something
You thought of bringing them,
said
Jonathan magnanimously.
You thought of using them,
said I, not
to be outdone.
And so again the imps were foiled. But they hung over us, they slapped us with spray, they tossed the whitecaps, jeering, at our heads, over our shoulders, into our laps. They put up the tides to tricks of eddies and back-currents, so that they hindered instead of helping, as by calculation they should have done. They laid invisible hands on our oars and dragged them down, or held them up as the wave raced by, so that we missed a stroke. Once, in the lee of an island, we paused to rest and unroll our chart and get our bearings, while the smooth rise and fall of the ground swell was all there was to remind us of the riot of water just outside. Then we were off again, and the imps had us. They were busy, those imps, all that long, windy, wave-tossed, wonderful day.
For it was wonderful, and the imps were
indeed frustrate, wholly frustrate. We pulled
toward the quiet harbor that evening with
aching muscles, hair and clothes matted with
salt water, but spirits undaunted. Hungry,
too, for we had not been able to do more than
munch a few ship’s biscuit while we rowed.
Wind, tide, waves, all against us, boat leaking,
oars disabled—and still—Isn’t it
great!
we said, great—great!
Dusk was closing in and lights began to blink along the western shore. We beached on a sandy point and asked our way,—where could we put up for the night? Children, barelegged, waded out around the boat, looking at us and our funny, laden craft, with curious eyes. Yes, they said, there was an inn, farther up the harbor, where we saw those lights—ten minutes’ row, perhaps. We pulled off again, stiffly.
Tired?
said Jonathan. I’ll take her
in.
Indeed you won’t! Of course I’m tired,
but I’ve got to do something to keep warm.
And I want to get in. I want supper. They’ll
all be in bed if we don’t hurry.
Our tired muscles lent themselves mechanically
to their work and the boat slid across
the quiet waters of the moonlit harbor. The
town lights grew bigger, wharves loomed
above us, and soon we were gliding along
under their shadow. The eddies from our
oars went lap-lap-lapping
off among the great
dark spiles and stirred up the keen smell of
salt-soaked timbers and seaweed. Blindly
groping, we found a rickety ladder, tied our
boat and climbed stiffly up, and there we
were on our feet again, feeling rather queer
and stretchy after seven hours in our cramped
quarters.
Half an hour later we were sitting in the warm, clean kitchen of the old inn, and a kindly but mystified hostess was mothering us with eggs and ham and tea and pie and doughnuts and other things that a New England kitchen always contains. While we ate she sat and rocked energetically, questioning us with friendly curiosity and watching us with keen though benevolent eyes.
Rowed, did you? Jim!
calling back over
her shoulder through a half-open door, did
you hear that? These folks have rowed all
she rowed, too.
They say they’re goin’ on to-morrow, round
Judith.
Say, now,
she finally appealed to us in
frank perplexity, what’re you doin’ it for?
We like it,
said Jonathan peacefully.
Like it, do you? Well, now, if that don’t
beat all! Say—you know? I wouldn’t do
that, what you’re doin’, not if you paid me.
Have another cup o’ tea, do.
The next morning she bade us good-bye with the air of entrusting us to that Providence which is known to have a special care for children and fools.
In fact, through all the varying experiences
of our cruise, one thing never varied. That
was, the expression on the faces of the people
we met. Wind and water and coast and birds
all greeted us differently with each new day,
but no matter
On that particular morning, word of our doings must have got abroad, for as we stepped out on the brick sidewalk of the shady main street a little crowd was waiting for us. It was a funny procession:—Jonathan first, with the guns and the water-jug, then a boy with a wheelbarrow, on which were piled the two dunnage bags, the metal box, the lantern, the axe, the chart tube, and a few other things. An old man and some boys followed curiously, then I came, with two big baking-powder cans, very gorgeous because the red paper was not yet off them, full of provisions pressed on us by our friendly hostess. Tagging behind me, came an old woman, a big girl, and a half-dozen children. It was the kind of escort that usually attends the hand-organ and monkey on their infrequent visits.
We loaded up the boat and pulled off, a
little stiff but fairly fit after all. The group
waved us off and then stood obviously talking
Pity ye’ hevn’t
got a
motor in there!
Though we didn’t want to be a motor-boat,
we were not above receiving courtesies
from one, and when the Providence tacitly
invoked by our hostess sent one chugging
along up to us, with the proposal to take us
in tow, we accepted with great contentment.
The morning was not half over when we made
our next landing, and looked up the captain
who was to tow us around Judith.
For in the matter of Point Judith our friends and advisers had been unanimously firm. There should be a limit, they said, even to the foolishness of a holiday plan. With a light boat, we might have braved their disapproval, but loaded as we were, we decided to be prudent.
I’d hate to lose the guns,
said Jonathan.
Yes, and the camera,
I added.
So we accepted the offer of a good friend’s
knockabout, and sailed around the dreaded
Point with our little boat tailing behind at
the end of her rope. We saw no water that
we could not have met in her, but, as our
At Stonington we were left once more to our little boat and our four oars, and there we pulled her up and caulked her.
Strange, how we are always trying to avoid
mishaps, and yet when they come we are so
often glad of them! A leaky boat had not
been in our plans, but if we could change that
first wild row across the big bay, if we could
cut out that leakiness, that puddling bottom,
the difficult shifts of baling and rowing, would
we? We would not. Again, as we look back
over the days of our cruise, we could ill spare
those hours of labor on the hot stretch of
sunny beach between the wharves, where we
bent half-blinded over the dazzling white
boat, our spirits irritated, our fingers aching
as they worked at the
push-push-push of the
cotton waste between the strakes. We said
hard words of the man who thought he had
put our boat in order for us, and yet—if we
could cut out those hours of grumbling toil,
would we? We would not. For one thing, we
should perhaps have missed the precious
word of advice given us by a man who sat and
We launched her again at dusk. Next morning Jonathan was a moment ahead of me on the wharf.
Any water in her?
I called, following
hard.
Dry as a bone,
he shouted back, exultant;
but as I came up he added, with his
usual conservatism, of course we can’t tell
what she may do when she’s loaded.
But our work held. For the rest of the trip we had a dry boat, except for what came in over the sides.
Now that we were in the home State, we
got out our guns and hugged the shore closely,
on the lookout for plover. We drifted sometimes,
while we studied our maps for the location
of the salt marshes. If we were lucky, we
had broiled birds for luncheon or supper; if
we were not, we had tinned stuff, which is distinctly
inferior. When we spent the night at
an inn, we breakfasted there, but most of our
Can we find an island for lunch to-day, do
you suppose?
I usually asked, as we dipped
our oars in the morning.
Do you have to have an island for lunch?
I love an island!
choosing to ignore the
jest. That’s one of the best things about a
boat—that it takes you to islands.
Now, why an island?
You know as well as I do. An island
means—oh, it means remoteness, it means
quiet—possession; while you’re on it, it’s
yours—you don’t have every passer-by
looking over your shoulder—you have a
little world all to yourself.
I could feel Jonathan’s indulgent smile through the back of his head as he rowed.
Well, you know yourself,
I argued.
Even a tiny bit of stone and earth, with
moss on it, and a flower, out in the middle of
a brook, looks different, somehow, from the
same things on the bank. It
is different—it’s
an island.
And so we sought islands—sometimes
little ones, all rocks, too little even to have
If we had had water enough in our jug, we
should have camped there. We rowed away
at last, slowly, loving it, and in our thoughts
we still possess it. As it dropped astern I
pulled in my oars and stood up to take its
Then it melted away—our island—into
the waste of waters, and we turned to look
toward the misty headlands beyond our bow.
Where the marshlands were, we followed
them closely, but where the shore was rocky,
or, worse still, built up with summer cottages,
we often made a straight course from
headland to headland, keeping well out, often
a mile or two, to avoid tide eddies. We liked
the feeling of being far out, the shore a dark
blue, the cottages little dots. But we liked it,
too, when the headland before us grew large,
its rocks and bushes stood out, and we could
see the white rip off its point—a rip to be
taken with some caution if we hoped to keep
our cargo dry. And then, the rip passed, if
the bay beyond curved in quiet and uninhabited,
But to do this, your boat must be a little one. As soon as you have a real keel, the case is altered. For a keel demands a special landing-place—a wharf—and a wharf means human habitation, and then—where is your thrill of discovery? Ah, no!—a little boat! And you can land anywhere, among rocks or in sandy shallows; you can explore the tide creeks and marshes and the little rivers; you can beach wherever you like, wherever the rippling waves themselves can go. A little boat for romance!
A little boat, but a long cruise, as long as
may be. To be sure, a boat and a bit of water
Not the least among the pleasures of the
cruise were the night-camps. When the shore
looked inviting, and harborage at an inn
seemed doubtful, we pulled our boat above
tide-water, turned her over and tilted her up
on her side for a wind-break, and there we
spent the night. The half-emptied dunnage
bags were our pillows, the sand was our bed.
Sand, to sleep on, is harder than one might
suppose, but it is better than earth in being
easily scooped out to suit one’s needs. Indeed,
even on a pneumatic mattress, I should hardly
have slept much that first night. It was a
new experience. The great world of waters
was so close that it seemed, all night long,
like a wonderful but ever importunate presence.
The bay seems very full to-night—brimming,
I said.
Not brimming over, though,
said Jonathan.
I should hope not! But it does seem to
me there are very few inches between it and
our feet.
And the tide is still rising, of course,
said Jonathan, by way of comfort.
Jonathan, I know just where high-tide
mark is, and we’re fully twelve inches above
it.
Silence.
Aren’t we?
Oh, was that a question?
murmured
Jonathan. Why, yes, I think we are at least
that.
Of course, there are extra high tides
sometimes.
Silence.
Jonathan, do you know when they come?
Not exactly.
Well, I don’t care. I love it, anyway.
Only it seems so much bigger and colder at
night, the water does.
At last I drowsed, waking now and then to
raise my head and just glance down at those
waves—they certainly sounded as if they
were lapping the sand close by my ear. No,
there they were, quite within bounds, fully
twenty feet away from my toes. Of course it
was all right. I slept again, and dreamed that
the tide rose and rose; the waves ran merrily
up the beach, ran up on both sides of us,
closed in behind us. We were lying on a little
sand island, and the waves nibbled at its
edges—nibbled and nibbled and nibbled—the
island was being nibbled up. This would
never do! We must move! And I woke.
Ripple, ripple, swash!
ripple, ripple, swash!
went the unconscious waves. As I raised my
head I saw the pale beach stretching off under
the moon-washed mists of middle night. Reassured,
I sank back, and when I waked again
the big sun was well above the rim of the
waters and all the little waves were dancing
The water was not always restless at night.
The next time we camped we found a little
harbor within a harbor, a crescent curve of
fine white sand ending in a point of rock. In
one of its clefts we made our fire and broiled
our plover, ranging them on spits of bay so
that they hung over the two edges of rock
like people looking down into a miniature
Grand Cañon. There were nine of them, fat
and sputtering, and while they cooked, we
made toast and arranged the camp. Then
we had supper, and watched the red coals
smouldering and the white moonlight filling
the world with a radiance that put out the
stars and brought the blue back to the sky.
The little basin of the bay was quiet as a pool,
the air was full of stillness, with now and then
the hushed flip-flip
of a tiny wave that had
somehow strayed in from the tumbling crowd
outside.
We slept well, but once Jonathan waked
me. Look!
he whispered, White heron.
I raised my head. There, quite near us in
the shallow water, stood a great pale bird,
I watched him until my neck grew tired. He never moved. Out beyond him, more dim, stood his mate, motionless too. Now and then they called to each other, with queer, harsh talk that made the stillness all the stiller when it closed in again.
When we awoke, they were gone, but we found the heronry that morning on one of the oak-covered knolls that rise like islands out of the heart of the great salt marshes.
All through the cruise, the big winds were
with us more than we had expected. They
gave us, for the most part, a right good time.
For even in the partly protected Sound it is
possible to stir up a sea rough enough to keep
one busy. Each wave, as it came galloping
up, was an antagonist to be dealt with. If
we met it successfully, it galloped on, and left
Look out!
and
dug my oar. Jonathan glanced, pulled, there
was a moment of doubt, then the huge dark
bulk was shouldering heavily away, off our
starboard quarter. It was only the first of
its ugly company. Through sheer carelessness,
we had run, as it were, into an ambush—one
of the worst bits of water on the Sound,
where tide and river currents meet and
wrangle. All around us were rearing, white-maned
breakers, though the impression we
got was less of their white manes than of their
It was like seeing a ghost,
I said,—no—more
like feeling the hand of an enemy
on your shoulder.
The Black Douglas,
suggested Jonathan.
Yes. Talk about the scientific attitude—you’ve
just got to personify things when they
come at you like that. That wave had an expression—an
ugly one. I don’t wonder the
Northmen felt as they did about the sea and
the waves. They took it all personally—they
had to!
Were you frightened?
asked Jonathan.
No, of course not,
I said, almost too
promptly. Then I meditated—I don’t
Did yours?
Why, not exactly—but—well—it certainly
did feel suddenly very thick and heavy—as
if it had dropped—perhaps an inch
or two.
I believe,
said Jonathan gently, you
might almost call that being frightened.
Yes, perhaps you might. Tell me—were
you?
I didn’t like it—yes, I was anxious—and
it made me tired to have been such a fool—the
whole thing was absolutely unnecessary,
if we’d looked up the charts carefully.
Or asked a few questions. But you know
you hate to ask questions.
You could have asked them.
Well, anyway, aren’t you glad it happened?
Oh, of course; it was an experience.
Do you want to do it again?
No
—he was emphatic—not with
that load.
Neither do I.
If the winds sometimes wearied us a little, they helped us, too. We can never forget the evening we turned into the Thames River, making for the shelter of a friend’s hospitable roof. We had battled most of that day with the diagonal onslaughts of a southeast gale, bringing with it the full swing of the ocean swell. It was easier than a southwester would have been, but that was the best that could be said for it.
We passed the last buoy and turned our
bow north. And suddenly, the great waves
that had all day kept us on the defensive became
our strong helpers. They took us up and
swung us forward on our course with great
sweeping rushes of motion. The tide was
setting in, too, and with that and our oars
we were going almost as fast as the waves
themselves, so that when one picked us up,
it swung us a long way before it left us. We
learned to watch for each roller, wait till one
came up astern, then pull with all our might
so that we went swooping down its long slope,
its crest at first just behind our stern, but
drawing more and more under us, until it
After all, the only drawback to the cruise was that it was over too soon. When, in the quiet afternoon light of the last day, a familiar headland floated into view, my first feeling was one of joy; for beyond that headland, what friendly faces waited for us—faces turned even now, perhaps, toward the east for a first glimpse of our little boat. But hard after this, came a pang of regret—it was over, our water-pilgrimage, and I wanted it to go on.
It was over. And yet, not really over after
all. I sometimes think that pleasures ought
are
over, or not. You cannot
eat your cake and have it too.
True, but
that is because it is cake. There are other
things which you can eat, and still have. And
our rowboat cruise is one of these. It is over,
and yet it is not over. It never will be. I can
shut my eyes—indeed, I do not need even
to shut them—and again I am under the
open sky, I am afloat in the sun and the wind,
with the waters all around me. I see again
the surf-edged curves of the beaches, the lines
of the sand-cliffs, the ragged horizon edge,
cut and jagged by the waves. I feel the boat,
I feel the oars, I am aware of the damp, pure
night air, and the sounds of the waves ceaselessly
breaking on the sand.
It is not over. Its best things are still ours,
and those things which were hardly pleasures
then have become such now. As we remember
our aching muscles and blistered hands, we
smile. As we recall times of intense weariness,
of irritation, of anxiety, we find ourselves
lingering over them with enjoyment. For
memory does something wonderful with experience.
It is a poet, and life is its raw
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